Shit
This is a bit of an old post somewhere else but these are my words
Ok so even when I try to be afectionit to someone, it sucks. I seriously want to just run my head into a wall several times. When I try to be more than a friend I feel like I drop pretty sudal hints. More like giant fucking clues, but it pisses me off when that person I am trying to get their attention totally ignores me unless they need something. I need to close myself off to everything I think. See times like this a really long lists apeer in my head. 45, rope, sharp objects like glass and knives. Death honestly would be better than this since then it's not that no one would miss me it's that I won't have to go through all this shit I can't explain inside me.
Ok so even when I try to be afectionit to someone, it sucks. I seriously want to just run my head into a wall several times. When I try to be more than a friend I feel like I drop pretty sudal hints. More like giant fucking clues, but it pisses me off when that person I am trying to get their attention totally ignores me unless they need something. I need to close myself off to everything I think. See times like this a really long lists apeer in my head. 45, rope, sharp objects like glass and knives. Death honestly would be better than this since then it's not that no one would miss me it's that I won't have to go through all this shit I can't explain inside me.