Rare IC Post....[Fiction]
It has occured to me, as I sit here contemplating chin ups off of the balcony again, that the worst things in my life are my greatest assets to everyone else. I can pretend that I am free all I wish, but yet there is nothing free about me. And it seems that my views on possession and being possessed might very well get those people that I love most in the world dead. How do the soldiers handle that? How do the leaders handle that? What can possess someone to think that their very actions would get good people killed? People needed later on in life?
I don't like to think. I work on feelings and instinct and what needs doing. Before, I worked on point and clicky. My Master told me to do something, and I did not question.
There's a part of me that wonders if that will still happen. If he tells me, will I be able to resist? My body is strong...but I know my mind is weak. Or is it my heart? I've had to bury two sons and a daughter in two years, not to mention patching up one son and another daughter. And the talk on the lists make me apathetic. Is it right to kill that which can not be rehabilitated? At what point does that begin? Does Melchoir deserve to die? I know that answer because I know what all he has done, but am I willing to put Kid in danger to do so?
Just what would the world be like if Fiction didn't exist?
I don't like to think. I work on feelings and instinct and what needs doing. Before, I worked on point and clicky. My Master told me to do something, and I did not question.
There's a part of me that wonders if that will still happen. If he tells me, will I be able to resist? My body is strong...but I know my mind is weak. Or is it my heart? I've had to bury two sons and a daughter in two years, not to mention patching up one son and another daughter. And the talk on the lists make me apathetic. Is it right to kill that which can not be rehabilitated? At what point does that begin? Does Melchoir deserve to die? I know that answer because I know what all he has done, but am I willing to put Kid in danger to do so?
Just what would the world be like if Fiction didn't exist?