No more...
This is it...no more please. I've taken all I can out of life. I just want to get to the next corner. I want to get the fuck away from everything. If Justin were to call me next week and tell me that he's going to be out in Japan with the air force and that he can pay for me to come out there, without a doubt I would be gone. I can't take anymore of this lie I live. I can't handle the misunderstandings, the pain I cause, the distrust, and everything else. I just want to be able to be myself, be accepted for this, and move on. I hate everything I am, and I hate everything that is. I need time to think, but the time is never right. I have a job, but I'm not getting enough money for everything I need it for, and to top it all off, I'm alone...Fuck this shit...all of it.