Kayla Elvira Mungaray, Exsultamus in Pax...

[thedarkfortress]

Kayla was so beautiful. i had never seen such a smile. for a year or so i was so close to her she felt like a sister to me. she was always getting sick and her computer was always having some sort of issue. i have one particular memory of her, amongst the many, that stands out to me the most. the year was 8th grade for me, the place was adam legamaro's house. it was graduation day from bishop garriga and i was attending on lisette's behalf. i was so excited to see kayla because it was one of the first times i had really gotten to sit down and have a chit chat with her. even then, just seeing her smile brought so much joy to me. she dazzled all the time. i had never seen a smile like hers. at that party of adam's tho, the celebration was coming to a close when her and i had a lightsaber war. it wasn't even a big thing, just the fact that she probably remembered it just like i did. Kayla, she showed me a lot of things. musically, she brought me my now favorite band, Tool. damn, Kayla loved tool so much. she never even got to see them perform. i remember when i did and came home, i think i even called her because her and i were huge tool fanatics at the time. Kayla loved the lost prophets and showed me shinobi vs. dragon ninja. she showed me Drop-D tuning on guitar. i remember when kayla would have her birthday come around and it would always be something super extravagant like a one of a kind stratocastor. she loved that pearl strat of hers. she played a mean guitar. i can remember so much about kayla even tho our time was sometimes short lived. we used to talk of her being a lawyer and that if i ever got into trouble she'd be there to bail me out. what an angel. despite all the hardships she went thru, she would still come out on top. that's what i loved most about her, her outlook on life. there was one day she told me that she used to like me and i couldn't have been happier. even tho there wasn't a chance for it agian, i still felt on top of the world because in my eyes she was that great. we would play guitar for each other on the phone all the time, i used to look forward to that so much. i had learned Parabola from Tool just for Kayla since we were both having such a hard time with it. there are so many wishes i could make right now in respects to that wonderful young woman but no quarter would be offered. she'd get so excited to talk about tool...she was really excited about their upcoming album. i wish she could hear it...i wish i could hear her raspy voice one more time...i wish i could see her smile again...i wish i could hear her play guitar again...i wish she would tell me how bad baby robert was being...i wish i could look into her eyes and tell her that i wish she enjoi her new journey and continue to search for purpose in this harsh, unforgiving world...i wish i could tell her i loved her one last time and hear her say it back...like i said before, i wish a lot of things. it's been a while since her and i had talked but i was so excited to tell her about the band that i finally got myself in since we projected that someday i'll get in a band and i'll love it. Kayla would have loved to have seen us. i would have loved to have had her there. when i think about her, i see her smiling face and guitar in hand, playing three libras. there's not enough i could say about Kayla to do her justice in my eyes. Kayla was the first of that i loved to have died. i hope she's with each and every person that loved and cared for her. i hope that when we do have our show in march, that she's there.

i kno you'll never read on this earth again Kayla, but, i'm going to keep my promise and never forget you.