the relationship.........
we thought it was going to be easy we were wrong....... being a mom and trying to be a wife is hard to do.... i want to please him and make him happy but we argue.....mostly over who takes care of the baby, work ,cigs.... i didn't ask him to give it up he wanted to but almost every night around the same time he asks can i have a cig and if i say no i thought u were giving it up....he sits there trying to convince me on how good he has been about not smoking all day.. and if i say yes i get to smell that discusting poopy smell all u smokers smell like... u don't know how bad it is till u stop believe me......i love him so much i just can't stand this piont that we r at right now......we r both under a lot of stress with the baby in all and it is hard with him working ..... i just with i can be a good mother and a good wife aat the same time... i guess only time will tell.... they say this is the hardest part.... i am just so scared that we will end up like my parents...alone and seperated....he says all the time that he will never leave me and that we will always be together and that we r just having a hard time right now and we have always made up after every aguement they never last long and i always curl up in his arms every night even if i was mad jsut before we laid down......my mom thinks it's true love and we r having the normal problems that every relationship has when they have a baby ....but i am just scared i only want the best for my son... and thats a loving family both mom and dad....................
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Daymeon is doing great... a healthy boy says the at home nurse when she came by today ... he is back up to his original weight and grew a half an inch.. it is the beautifull thing to be a mom to such a bright baby like him ..time is going so fast i wish i could just freeze time and hold hime in my arms forever standing side by side with stearns......