So long... so much.
It's funny how writing in this journal used to be so normal for me.
I think recently I have found other places to release my stress. I'm not sure if it's working, but it's keeping me occupied.
The holiday season was incredibly hard for me.
Being alone for it was definatly no fun but when Moulder passed away I was useless for a good few days.
That may sound pathetic to some but he was my best friend.
We didn't replace Moulder, if that's what you called it when you found out I got a puppy for Christmas.
Winona was to come around sooner but we just hadn't found her yet. Winona is my baby and I LOVE HER!! I'm so happy to take care of her... as goofy as that sounds.
New Years was interresting.. the first of many I'm sure.
The weeks following new years were no exception. But I am glad I'm through with that time.
Before I contine I'd like to say that I write this publicly because most of it is stuff I'd like everyone to know. I want everyone to know the real me, the sensitive me, and the loving me. I am myself and you can love me or hate me... I really don't care. Your negative words don't hurt me.
I met a boy. It's about DAMN time!! haha.
WOW.
That's all I can really say.
I've actually met him a few times before the night I really remember, but that night he really stuck out to me.
Back in the summer I met him at our car show and we exchanged glances... not a lot of talking, if any (of course I do not remember). Once during fall semester he stopped to talk to Ricky but I don't think we talked even then. Finally, Anita started talking to his friend Scotty and one night Scotty and Doug met us to play some pool. Naturally we played 2 on 2... Emily & Doug V. Anita & Scotty. That's when I noticed him. That's when I noticed a lot about him too. WOW was he shy!! I had to ask him to be on my team.. but he liked it! haha... he now tells me he could tell I liked him but I think he's fulla shit!! AANNNYYWHOOOO... We played some pool, went to taco bell and then headed home. That was a tuesday night... soon enough Anita and I made plans to go out that weekend and she told me she invited Scott. That is when I demanded he should bring Doug. LITTLE DID I KNOW Doug already planned on being there and seeing me too! It's crazy how that works!! Soooo we went dancing!! LITTLE DID I KNOW.. not only does Doug NEVER dance he also never talks as much as he did to me that night. We had a blast... and of course I finally got his number!!! A week later (and I know this sounds fast to you but I'll explain) we started dating. January 23, 2007. My half birthday!! lol!! I had never made a connection with someone as I did with him... from the first time I can remember meeting him... (he had to remind me of the other times previous to our pool night).. He swept me off my feet. We understood everythin about eachother. It was like I already knew him... I can't believe it.
So Wednesday was Valentine's Day. No one has ever done something romantic for me like he had. I can't even begin to explain how I felt all night. I couldn't believe someone would want to do something so sweet for me. I can't help but feel like I want to be with him through the rest of out highs and lows. He's always the shoulder I cry on and I'm always the one he picks on most!!
I definatly feel like I have fallen for this boy and I think I am very blessed to have him in my life. He picked me up just when I needed someone to be there for me. He completely understands when I'm upset. He better know how happy he makes me.
My valentine's gift was a beautiful heart necklace so I'm happy to say he gave me his heart. I'll take it with m everywhere I go, every day.. and I will take the best care of it.
I am so thankful.
So happy.
And so in love.
Life could be really hard for me right now.. but I bet you can't tell. He takes all of that pain away.
.:.r.o.c.k..o.u.t.:.
-Emily-
I think recently I have found other places to release my stress. I'm not sure if it's working, but it's keeping me occupied.
The holiday season was incredibly hard for me.
Being alone for it was definatly no fun but when Moulder passed away I was useless for a good few days.
That may sound pathetic to some but he was my best friend.
We didn't replace Moulder, if that's what you called it when you found out I got a puppy for Christmas.
Winona was to come around sooner but we just hadn't found her yet. Winona is my baby and I LOVE HER!! I'm so happy to take care of her... as goofy as that sounds.
New Years was interresting.. the first of many I'm sure.
The weeks following new years were no exception. But I am glad I'm through with that time.
Before I contine I'd like to say that I write this publicly because most of it is stuff I'd like everyone to know. I want everyone to know the real me, the sensitive me, and the loving me. I am myself and you can love me or hate me... I really don't care. Your negative words don't hurt me.
I met a boy. It's about DAMN time!! haha.
WOW.
That's all I can really say.
I've actually met him a few times before the night I really remember, but that night he really stuck out to me.
Back in the summer I met him at our car show and we exchanged glances... not a lot of talking, if any (of course I do not remember). Once during fall semester he stopped to talk to Ricky but I don't think we talked even then. Finally, Anita started talking to his friend Scotty and one night Scotty and Doug met us to play some pool. Naturally we played 2 on 2... Emily & Doug V. Anita & Scotty. That's when I noticed him. That's when I noticed a lot about him too. WOW was he shy!! I had to ask him to be on my team.. but he liked it! haha... he now tells me he could tell I liked him but I think he's fulla shit!! AANNNYYWHOOOO... We played some pool, went to taco bell and then headed home. That was a tuesday night... soon enough Anita and I made plans to go out that weekend and she told me she invited Scott. That is when I demanded he should bring Doug. LITTLE DID I KNOW Doug already planned on being there and seeing me too! It's crazy how that works!! Soooo we went dancing!! LITTLE DID I KNOW.. not only does Doug NEVER dance he also never talks as much as he did to me that night. We had a blast... and of course I finally got his number!!! A week later (and I know this sounds fast to you but I'll explain) we started dating. January 23, 2007. My half birthday!! lol!! I had never made a connection with someone as I did with him... from the first time I can remember meeting him... (he had to remind me of the other times previous to our pool night).. He swept me off my feet. We understood everythin about eachother. It was like I already knew him... I can't believe it.
So Wednesday was Valentine's Day. No one has ever done something romantic for me like he had. I can't even begin to explain how I felt all night. I couldn't believe someone would want to do something so sweet for me. I can't help but feel like I want to be with him through the rest of out highs and lows. He's always the shoulder I cry on and I'm always the one he picks on most!!
I definatly feel like I have fallen for this boy and I think I am very blessed to have him in my life. He picked me up just when I needed someone to be there for me. He completely understands when I'm upset. He better know how happy he makes me.
My valentine's gift was a beautiful heart necklace so I'm happy to say he gave me his heart. I'll take it with m everywhere I go, every day.. and I will take the best care of it.
I am so thankful.
So happy.
And so in love.
Life could be really hard for me right now.. but I bet you can't tell. He takes all of that pain away.
.:.r.o.c.k..o.u.t.:.
-Emily-