sloowww down
the days haven't slowed down, justement, things have picked up their pace and i seem to have no time to do just "nothing"..so i find myself trying to do just that at work, when in fact i have a lot of stuff to get done and want more than anything else to prove myself that i'm capable.
soo happy that i'm working with matea. she is an awesome girl and was always intrigued by her, and now i have the chance to get to know her. i also think she is probably the most beautiful, or one of the most, persons i know. she is the epitomy of a woman. david and i are trying to set her up with xavier actually!
we had lunch today at cocotte and chatted about tout et n'importe quoi. funnily enough, she's just like me..meaning she overspends her budget, appears to have more than she has, has her parents always rolling their eyes at her 'champagne taste' (as my dad likes to put it), etc etc. we have a lot in common and seem to get along well. glad i know her! i'm think i'll ask her if she wants to go to the private vintage clothing/depot vente at vladamir's (david's, no my bf, brother's) apartment.
yesterday i went to david's and it didn't even take me that long to get there-- 35 minutes and i was at the argenteuil station, with david waiting for me! the banlieu isn't so bad after all. he had to go to a meeting around 8 so he dropped me off at the centre commercial so i could get some stuff for dinner. incidently, i ended up spending 50 euros in sephora on: lipfusion plumping gloss that i'm IN LOVE WITH!, a solid perfume in a vanilla lemon scent that david seemed to literally eat off my neck (IN LOVE WITH THIS TOO!), and...dum..dum dum....THE product. the one and only, "touche eclat" by YSL. i wasn't sure what it would do, but i know that it had to be a best seller for a reason. well, maybe it's all in my head, or a subconcious attempt to justify spending 35 euros on a little tube of something, but i swear my skin was glowing today. glowing!!
david loooved my dinner. i ended up making : this pea and pasta soup dish that my grams makes and is sooo easy and yummy, a spinach salad with honey and balsamic dressing with feta, and chicken with artichokes, tomatoes, capers, onions, garlic and sundried tomatoes in a white wine sauce. i think i shocked his palate with all the flavors, since it's been a while since he's eaten such good and flavorful food. he loved it and ended up bringing the rest to work.
and then for dessert...
me! yes, i was his dessert. and he enjoyed it very much i would have to say. so he is like the opposite of juliani, in the giving head department and is fucking crazy about it and, well, it just works out really well for me! cause now he has this thing that he wants to see how many times in a row he can do it. yeahhh.
work was pretty easy to get to, only took an hour, like normally, from david's apartment. so convenient! i saw olivier at work today. i stopped by his desk and was a bit flustered. he mentioned that i lost weight (not the case, but ok for a compliment) and seemed quite happy to see me and suggested we eat together. he doesn't know i have a boyfriend, and i won't tell him until he asks. i'm doing this for 2 reasons: 1) he did the same thing to me..even though i'm not a revenge-type person 2) more because i'm really confused as to why i am unable to disclose to guys that appear to me interested in me, that i'm taken. i feel as if i have to keep my options open, in a 'ya never know' -type case. this is horrible because i really adore david and we get along so well. last night was awesome and i know he cares a lot about me. i saw it in his eyes when i was cooking his dinner, and in his response when i said 'je me sens bien avec toi'. we have something special, so why is it hard to tell my (ex) crush at work the truth? maybe because i still think he is sooo damn cute and am just curious? or maybe i'm just a gemini that can't commit and flits about from 1 guy to the next. david knows every single detail of my past relationships oddly enough, and when telling him all that, i realized that i'm a bit fucked up.
a propos de talking about anything and everything with david..i don't know what it is about him that makes me able to tell him EVERYTHING. i mean EVERYTHING. he knows like my life story. he knows the most intimate, embarrassing, deepest darkest secrets. i feel like i have total confidence in him. he just makes me feel so comfortable with myself and who i am, that i know he won't judge me no matter one. it's a bit bizarre cause i'm putting myself in a vulnerable position..but at the same time he's getting to see the real me, from the inside out. i mean, i told him things that no one knows, that i haven't thought about since i was 13. i just keep coming up with these stories. tonight on the phone we talked for an hour about shit like that. i hope i don't run out of things to say! i'll have to start buying stories from a kramer-like character.speaking of kramer, alex has all of the seinfeld dvds.
so i have like 2 awesome new friends, and awesome new boyfriend, and an awesome friend who is leaving paris (mwaahh) and a lot of school and work stuff, plus running to juggle. it's a lot. and now i have to sleeeeeeeeep..because
i went running this evening despite the rain and the severe fatigue. i haven't gotten a decent night's sleep in about a week and i think i'm running on empty. i'm also bloated, or i just gained like 10 pounds in 2 days. i hope it's the former.
ps: i'm in love with the fish soup at the thai resto near school. soooo good!
soo happy that i'm working with matea. she is an awesome girl and was always intrigued by her, and now i have the chance to get to know her. i also think she is probably the most beautiful, or one of the most, persons i know. she is the epitomy of a woman. david and i are trying to set her up with xavier actually!
we had lunch today at cocotte and chatted about tout et n'importe quoi. funnily enough, she's just like me..meaning she overspends her budget, appears to have more than she has, has her parents always rolling their eyes at her 'champagne taste' (as my dad likes to put it), etc etc. we have a lot in common and seem to get along well. glad i know her! i'm think i'll ask her if she wants to go to the private vintage clothing/depot vente at vladamir's (david's, no my bf, brother's) apartment.
yesterday i went to david's and it didn't even take me that long to get there-- 35 minutes and i was at the argenteuil station, with david waiting for me! the banlieu isn't so bad after all. he had to go to a meeting around 8 so he dropped me off at the centre commercial so i could get some stuff for dinner. incidently, i ended up spending 50 euros in sephora on: lipfusion plumping gloss that i'm IN LOVE WITH!, a solid perfume in a vanilla lemon scent that david seemed to literally eat off my neck (IN LOVE WITH THIS TOO!), and...dum..dum dum....THE product. the one and only, "touche eclat" by YSL. i wasn't sure what it would do, but i know that it had to be a best seller for a reason. well, maybe it's all in my head, or a subconcious attempt to justify spending 35 euros on a little tube of something, but i swear my skin was glowing today. glowing!!
david loooved my dinner. i ended up making : this pea and pasta soup dish that my grams makes and is sooo easy and yummy, a spinach salad with honey and balsamic dressing with feta, and chicken with artichokes, tomatoes, capers, onions, garlic and sundried tomatoes in a white wine sauce. i think i shocked his palate with all the flavors, since it's been a while since he's eaten such good and flavorful food. he loved it and ended up bringing the rest to work.
and then for dessert...
me! yes, i was his dessert. and he enjoyed it very much i would have to say. so he is like the opposite of juliani, in the giving head department and is fucking crazy about it and, well, it just works out really well for me! cause now he has this thing that he wants to see how many times in a row he can do it. yeahhh.
work was pretty easy to get to, only took an hour, like normally, from david's apartment. so convenient! i saw olivier at work today. i stopped by his desk and was a bit flustered. he mentioned that i lost weight (not the case, but ok for a compliment) and seemed quite happy to see me and suggested we eat together. he doesn't know i have a boyfriend, and i won't tell him until he asks. i'm doing this for 2 reasons: 1) he did the same thing to me..even though i'm not a revenge-type person 2) more because i'm really confused as to why i am unable to disclose to guys that appear to me interested in me, that i'm taken. i feel as if i have to keep my options open, in a 'ya never know' -type case. this is horrible because i really adore david and we get along so well. last night was awesome and i know he cares a lot about me. i saw it in his eyes when i was cooking his dinner, and in his response when i said 'je me sens bien avec toi'. we have something special, so why is it hard to tell my (ex) crush at work the truth? maybe because i still think he is sooo damn cute and am just curious? or maybe i'm just a gemini that can't commit and flits about from 1 guy to the next. david knows every single detail of my past relationships oddly enough, and when telling him all that, i realized that i'm a bit fucked up.
a propos de talking about anything and everything with david..i don't know what it is about him that makes me able to tell him EVERYTHING. i mean EVERYTHING. he knows like my life story. he knows the most intimate, embarrassing, deepest darkest secrets. i feel like i have total confidence in him. he just makes me feel so comfortable with myself and who i am, that i know he won't judge me no matter one. it's a bit bizarre cause i'm putting myself in a vulnerable position..but at the same time he's getting to see the real me, from the inside out. i mean, i told him things that no one knows, that i haven't thought about since i was 13. i just keep coming up with these stories. tonight on the phone we talked for an hour about shit like that. i hope i don't run out of things to say! i'll have to start buying stories from a kramer-like character.speaking of kramer, alex has all of the seinfeld dvds.
so i have like 2 awesome new friends, and awesome new boyfriend, and an awesome friend who is leaving paris (mwaahh) and a lot of school and work stuff, plus running to juggle. it's a lot. and now i have to sleeeeeeeeep..because
i went running this evening despite the rain and the severe fatigue. i haven't gotten a decent night's sleep in about a week and i think i'm running on empty. i'm also bloated, or i just gained like 10 pounds in 2 days. i hope it's the former.
ps: i'm in love with the fish soup at the thai resto near school. soooo good!