heartbreakers anonymous
i've become very talented in the art of breaking hearts...
monday went really well. i was able to get some work done and go to my first meeting for my job/project at young & rubicam. i was introduced as the "first employee" of this new project that they are launching, and i guess it had already been said that i was american. this last part inevidibly lead to people stopping mid-way in their french sentences to speak in english directed to me.. ughh so then i had to do that snobby "no i speak french" thing so they would just cut it out. cause let's face it, them speaking in english wasn't going to get us anywhere.
i was really nervous in the beginning because i was intimidated by the other people's savvy advertising..-ness? well they just kept flinging things around that i had no clue how to input anything, i was struggling just to take it all in! the meeting was to brainstorm ideas for the name of this new "reseau" that we're creating for 360 ad campaigns that have pretty much rocked your world in the last few years. it's like the "colette" of ads but without the snobby unreachable-ness. anyway, my one idea that i had a week ago was still in the back of my head, so when the time was right, i just threw it out on the table.
my idea has to do with owls, the bird that can pretty much turn its head around 360 degrees, almost. but anyway, the idea was "hoot", since it's the noise the owl makes, and this site is supposed to be like an alert, or a "hey! look what's up in the ad world of 360 degree campaigns". it's supposed to be an all-encompassing type thing, which goes hand-in-hand with the whole owl idea. anyway, my boss lit up when i mentioned it and it after an hour, it had come up atleast 4 or 5 times again. i had to leave because of a kine appointment (which i was too late for anyway) so nothing was finalized as far as a name goes. but we'll see. if they choose my name i'll be thrilled. how awesome would that be? even if they don't, the fact that they would have been lost without me is quite reassuring. they need a name that works in all languages or that is international. aka in english. i don't know how many words and expressions i translated for them in one hour. i think they realized their incapabilities as far as english goes, and i was there to rub it in!! haha.
tuesday david came to pick me up around noon to spend the day running, going shopping etc. perfect right? we stopped off first at decathalon to check out the sports gear. first time ever i walked around paris and its environs in complete sportswear (i didn't know we were stopping off first). i had my sneaks and running shirt on etc, i looked like i could have worked at the store. we looked at the bikes and other equipment and agreed that we'll definately do other things (camping, biking, surfing, snowboarding..etc). i ended up not getting anything. david got some sex wax and something for the firehouse. we then made another pit-stop to truffaut to get some cat litter and cat food since i could take advantage of the trunk space and not have to schlep that all over paris.
the weather was gorgeous, perfect for running. we took a different route in bois de boulogne which brought us to a waterfall. it was really beautiful and an awesome photo-op. david is obsessed with taking pictures and videos and feels the need to document everything. so from this one day i have pictures of me with my running nose, huffing and puffing and then some lousy pictures with windblown hair and rosy cheeks. but it's all good! we then went back to the military course where there's all different tasks/tests like the monkey bars, this inclined plank to do crunches, chin-up bar, etc etc. i held my own i would say, and probably impressed him a bit. we taped the fact that i could only do 1 proper pull-up and couldn't do the fireman test where you have to pull yourself up onto a board. apparently we're going to document my progress. fun right? we had some pretty good convos running; reminded me of cross-country seasons running with the girls on the team. you share some pretty interesting stuff on those long rungs.
by the time we made it back to the car we were starving and tired. it was greeat. i took a hot shower back at his place, which unfortunately left him with none for himself. i'm such a bitch! i feel like he does everything and is so nice and generous and then there i go using up the hot water when we were just outside for 2 hours in freezing weather. eh. by the way, he stole me another pompier tee-shirt in my size but i left it the back of his car, otherwise i'd be wearing it now!
we went to a mall in velizy to do some xmas shopping. spent way too much time in fnac but had some good laughs. when we got back home we were starrrving. we watched the new franck dubosc dvd and ice age2 while gourging on pasta. yum. i only enjoy pasta if it's realized to running or something.
by the time ice age was over i was about to scream because all day i wanted to like jump on him. haha. well, i finally got my chance. and my curiosities were answered in one way or another. since i really like him, things went well. it always seems to happen that way for me. actually, they went really well come to think of it. he's generous, so to speak, and apparently has no taboos. later in bed after round 2 we were discussing at length these nitty-gritty of certain details. apparently he loves to go down on girls, like that his thing. welllll isn't that convenient for me? in any case, if that weren't true, it wouldn't have been the first time i taught someone haha. what's awesome about david is that he's just so easy going and makes me laugh all the time. i think i make him laugh all the time too with my franglish sentences. i have no inhibitions when i'm around him and can totally be myself. it made me feel like i was with one of those awesome friends i was missing a few weeks ago, one that loves adventure and one that won't judge me for being me. i used his toothbrush last night. seems like no big deal right? but it is for me. not because he's "sharing" something of his, but the fact that he is so blase or non-chalant about shit that other people make a big deal about. i hate that!
we've known eachother for like a week and already we have plans on going snowoboarding in the alps, camping, training me (for what? i don't know), vacation together in march (maybe new york?), roller blading, etc etc. he's so into things and ready to bring me along, it's hard not to get excited.
yesterday when i checked my phone, i saw that guillaume had sent me a text message. it was long and super sweet, saying how he missed me and thinks about me everyday, wishes he could be with me now etc. i didn't write back, like i normally would. when i finally got home this morning (had to lave david's at around 7 cause he was going to work..ahhh saw him in his uniform..hotness), i went to bed for a few hours and then got a call from guillaume....
i didn't want to lie to him or pretend, so when the subject came up i told him about david. he didn't like the fact that it was a firefighter, since he knows how they are etc (mind you, he was one!) and he was kindof pissed. pissed in his own way. he's not one to get super angry and yell (he apparently went boxing afterwards imagining it was a pompier). but what could i do/say? i haven't forgotten about him nor have i changed how i feel about him but i have to weigh my options. wait for him to come back from senegal and then what? maybe not have the relationship that i want? or continue to have a pseudo-relationship? turn my back on someone that is awesome who has great potential to becoming somehing more serious? there are pros and cons to each side but i'm just going with the flow, and apparently stomping on the hearts of others. it made me feel really bad for guillaume, for myself, and a bit confused as well. but there's no doubt in my mind that i can't not be with david because of guillaume. that definitely doesn't feel right. so i sort of let it roll off...now i'm just concerned that his 'bad thought's' are going to doom my relationship with david. can that happen? i'm a little too superstitious i think.
and then he just called me back. he called me to tell me that he is "fou amoureux de moi"...aka inlove with me. this i didn't know. this made me upset. but he also said it was his fault, that if he wanted something more to happen with me he should have invested himself and that it was normal that i find or be with someone else, he just hoped it wasn't the first guy that moved and would treat me like whatever. i don't think this is the case with david. i have his address and his number down there so we will be in touch. i guess there is nothing more than to wait and see what happens. ah it's painful and it sucks. i still consider the day we ran to the chateau a the best day in..i don't know how long. the year? maybe even more. but then here i go with david having tons of great memories in little under a week! so, what is a girl supposed to do?
who knows what will happen when guillaume comes back. he might not even be stations out of paris. and david too might be moved to bordeaux! who knows! i don't even know if i'll be in france! ah!
ok so it's 1pm and i have 2 finals tomorrow that i have barely prepared for because i've been too busy with my head in the clouds.
monday went really well. i was able to get some work done and go to my first meeting for my job/project at young & rubicam. i was introduced as the "first employee" of this new project that they are launching, and i guess it had already been said that i was american. this last part inevidibly lead to people stopping mid-way in their french sentences to speak in english directed to me.. ughh so then i had to do that snobby "no i speak french" thing so they would just cut it out. cause let's face it, them speaking in english wasn't going to get us anywhere.
i was really nervous in the beginning because i was intimidated by the other people's savvy advertising..-ness? well they just kept flinging things around that i had no clue how to input anything, i was struggling just to take it all in! the meeting was to brainstorm ideas for the name of this new "reseau" that we're creating for 360 ad campaigns that have pretty much rocked your world in the last few years. it's like the "colette" of ads but without the snobby unreachable-ness. anyway, my one idea that i had a week ago was still in the back of my head, so when the time was right, i just threw it out on the table.
my idea has to do with owls, the bird that can pretty much turn its head around 360 degrees, almost. but anyway, the idea was "hoot", since it's the noise the owl makes, and this site is supposed to be like an alert, or a "hey! look what's up in the ad world of 360 degree campaigns". it's supposed to be an all-encompassing type thing, which goes hand-in-hand with the whole owl idea. anyway, my boss lit up when i mentioned it and it after an hour, it had come up atleast 4 or 5 times again. i had to leave because of a kine appointment (which i was too late for anyway) so nothing was finalized as far as a name goes. but we'll see. if they choose my name i'll be thrilled. how awesome would that be? even if they don't, the fact that they would have been lost without me is quite reassuring. they need a name that works in all languages or that is international. aka in english. i don't know how many words and expressions i translated for them in one hour. i think they realized their incapabilities as far as english goes, and i was there to rub it in!! haha.
tuesday david came to pick me up around noon to spend the day running, going shopping etc. perfect right? we stopped off first at decathalon to check out the sports gear. first time ever i walked around paris and its environs in complete sportswear (i didn't know we were stopping off first). i had my sneaks and running shirt on etc, i looked like i could have worked at the store. we looked at the bikes and other equipment and agreed that we'll definately do other things (camping, biking, surfing, snowboarding..etc). i ended up not getting anything. david got some sex wax and something for the firehouse. we then made another pit-stop to truffaut to get some cat litter and cat food since i could take advantage of the trunk space and not have to schlep that all over paris.
the weather was gorgeous, perfect for running. we took a different route in bois de boulogne which brought us to a waterfall. it was really beautiful and an awesome photo-op. david is obsessed with taking pictures and videos and feels the need to document everything. so from this one day i have pictures of me with my running nose, huffing and puffing and then some lousy pictures with windblown hair and rosy cheeks. but it's all good! we then went back to the military course where there's all different tasks/tests like the monkey bars, this inclined plank to do crunches, chin-up bar, etc etc. i held my own i would say, and probably impressed him a bit. we taped the fact that i could only do 1 proper pull-up and couldn't do the fireman test where you have to pull yourself up onto a board. apparently we're going to document my progress. fun right? we had some pretty good convos running; reminded me of cross-country seasons running with the girls on the team. you share some pretty interesting stuff on those long rungs.
by the time we made it back to the car we were starving and tired. it was greeat. i took a hot shower back at his place, which unfortunately left him with none for himself. i'm such a bitch! i feel like he does everything and is so nice and generous and then there i go using up the hot water when we were just outside for 2 hours in freezing weather. eh. by the way, he stole me another pompier tee-shirt in my size but i left it the back of his car, otherwise i'd be wearing it now!
we went to a mall in velizy to do some xmas shopping. spent way too much time in fnac but had some good laughs. when we got back home we were starrrving. we watched the new franck dubosc dvd and ice age2 while gourging on pasta. yum. i only enjoy pasta if it's realized to running or something.
by the time ice age was over i was about to scream because all day i wanted to like jump on him. haha. well, i finally got my chance. and my curiosities were answered in one way or another. since i really like him, things went well. it always seems to happen that way for me. actually, they went really well come to think of it. he's generous, so to speak, and apparently has no taboos. later in bed after round 2 we were discussing at length these nitty-gritty of certain details. apparently he loves to go down on girls, like that his thing. welllll isn't that convenient for me? in any case, if that weren't true, it wouldn't have been the first time i taught someone haha. what's awesome about david is that he's just so easy going and makes me laugh all the time. i think i make him laugh all the time too with my franglish sentences. i have no inhibitions when i'm around him and can totally be myself. it made me feel like i was with one of those awesome friends i was missing a few weeks ago, one that loves adventure and one that won't judge me for being me. i used his toothbrush last night. seems like no big deal right? but it is for me. not because he's "sharing" something of his, but the fact that he is so blase or non-chalant about shit that other people make a big deal about. i hate that!
we've known eachother for like a week and already we have plans on going snowoboarding in the alps, camping, training me (for what? i don't know), vacation together in march (maybe new york?), roller blading, etc etc. he's so into things and ready to bring me along, it's hard not to get excited.
yesterday when i checked my phone, i saw that guillaume had sent me a text message. it was long and super sweet, saying how he missed me and thinks about me everyday, wishes he could be with me now etc. i didn't write back, like i normally would. when i finally got home this morning (had to lave david's at around 7 cause he was going to work..ahhh saw him in his uniform..hotness), i went to bed for a few hours and then got a call from guillaume....
i didn't want to lie to him or pretend, so when the subject came up i told him about david. he didn't like the fact that it was a firefighter, since he knows how they are etc (mind you, he was one!) and he was kindof pissed. pissed in his own way. he's not one to get super angry and yell (he apparently went boxing afterwards imagining it was a pompier). but what could i do/say? i haven't forgotten about him nor have i changed how i feel about him but i have to weigh my options. wait for him to come back from senegal and then what? maybe not have the relationship that i want? or continue to have a pseudo-relationship? turn my back on someone that is awesome who has great potential to becoming somehing more serious? there are pros and cons to each side but i'm just going with the flow, and apparently stomping on the hearts of others. it made me feel really bad for guillaume, for myself, and a bit confused as well. but there's no doubt in my mind that i can't not be with david because of guillaume. that definitely doesn't feel right. so i sort of let it roll off...now i'm just concerned that his 'bad thought's' are going to doom my relationship with david. can that happen? i'm a little too superstitious i think.
and then he just called me back. he called me to tell me that he is "fou amoureux de moi"...aka inlove with me. this i didn't know. this made me upset. but he also said it was his fault, that if he wanted something more to happen with me he should have invested himself and that it was normal that i find or be with someone else, he just hoped it wasn't the first guy that moved and would treat me like whatever. i don't think this is the case with david. i have his address and his number down there so we will be in touch. i guess there is nothing more than to wait and see what happens. ah it's painful and it sucks. i still consider the day we ran to the chateau a the best day in..i don't know how long. the year? maybe even more. but then here i go with david having tons of great memories in little under a week! so, what is a girl supposed to do?
who knows what will happen when guillaume comes back. he might not even be stations out of paris. and david too might be moved to bordeaux! who knows! i don't even know if i'll be in france! ah!
ok so it's 1pm and i have 2 finals tomorrow that i have barely prepared for because i've been too busy with my head in the clouds.