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i had a stupid mandatory meeting at school last night for seniors (eek i'm a senior!). i say stupid cause i was under the impression that we'd be discussing things that were genuinely important. i rushed over there from work...halfway along the way realizing i left my phone...and when i got to school the room was crowded and no one could hear a word. we ended up signing some sheet with our info (major, id number, email etc).. they have this info!!! this was so pointless! plus, they were snapping graduation photos in the corner, so unorganized and spur of the moment. i was greasy and ugly..so i guess i won't be in the yearbook.
i had to go back to work for my phone cause 1) i am completely lost without it 2) i didn't want the alarm to go off every 5 minutes in the morning starting at 8 am 3) i was afraid someone would steal it!
leakhena offered to make the trip back with me. it's quite a trip. so out of our way. but i got to show her where i work and we stole some people mags on the way out. unfortunately olivier had already gone home cause i wanted leakhena atleast see why i was obssessed with him. later i asked her if she happened to see the guy who works behind me (cause he's pretty hot too), to which she replied, "oh the one who uses the white computer. ahhh this is a classic, i love it! i knew she knew what she was talking about but it was funny how she referred to an apple as the "white computer".
when i checked my phone i saw that guillaume had called me twice which meant he was probably able to see me. yay!
leakhena was starving and i wanted to be quick since guillaume was leaving the base soon, so we decided to eat in the chinese resto that i usually go for lunch at. ahh spring rolls twice in one day..such a treat!
guillaume came over around 10 which gave me enough time to fold my laundry and fix my ugly greasy face. we entertained ourselves by eating raw ginger, talking about sports, drinking my tea infusion, rubbing tiger balm on eachother's sore muscles, and other interesting things..
i told him i was going to see a sports doctor for my knee/leg which for him is like over-doing it. i get the impression that nothing phases him, unless you're dying. i mean, this is normal i guess if you're in the military. anyway, i told him about my knee clicking etc and he told me that it was probably because i "manque quelquechose" like a deficiency of some sort. be it calcium (this is impossible with all the dairy i consume) or because i simply don't drink enough water. this is bizarre too cause i'm a water fanatic. but i guess in recent times i haven't been getting the 1.5 liters that i normally get. well, we'll see tonight.
guillaume had to wake up around 5:45 again. yikes. but it was a good wake up. i mean, come on, getting up next to me?? what more can you ask for? ....
well, i would have asked for different condoms. i don't know what compelled me to buy the kind of trojans i did when i was home last time since i'm quite content with the ones here. but alas i had no more and well, we made do. morning sex can never be bad. ah.
so it's now pretty much confirmed that he's leaving for senegal this week. first he's going to bordeaux, then toulouse, and then being shipped out (on an american military jet) to senegal..until february i think. wahh. i was sad when he left this morning, cause i'm quite sure that will be the last time until he comes back. and even when he does come back there is no expectation whatsoever. i might be with someone (hopefully)..he might move to a different base. who knows.
in spite of everything, things have worked out quite nicely with him and i. this non-serious yet meaninful thing we had/have going. the last thing i need is another obligation, someone complaing "why didn't you call me" or "why didn't you make time for me", or "who are you going with." i don't need that crap. even last night when i called him back he asked me if i was "dispo" (available), to which i said that i was in boulogne with a friend and getting something to eat. he was more than agreeable saying, take my time, bon apetit etc etc. never once has he made me feel obligated or like i had to drop everything just cause he was available. and despite our having an amazing rapport in the bedroom, i never once felt used or dirty in some way. au contraire, i always felt like he appreciated me..a lot. even last night while falling asleep wrapped around eachother he said, "quelle chance que j'ai"...or "how lucky i am." and when i felt bad about him only getting like 2 hours of sleep when he comes over, to which he replied "but i wanted to come, cause everytime i come it's 'genial'..cause you're 'genial'." i won't pretend that what we had/have is some super-deep and earth-shattering relationship. but it was fun while it lasted. and again it taught me what kind of things i look for in a guy..which might not be so great cause now my standards have been raised yet again. i don't know who will be able to reach that. but getting back to guillaume, i don't think either of us will forget eachother (he said so himself). how could we? within the first 24 hours of meeting eachother we skirted off to normandy for a weekend imprevu. perfect! ah, good times good times. and then a few weeks ago when we ran together. those days, and many others really stand out. it's crazy how we've known eachother for 6 months. it seems like yesterday.