Jan 18, 2005 17:35
So the con was good. I don't know, I used to get so excited and count down days until the next one and spend weeks getting out of other activities to make sure I have to entire weekend free. But this year, everything's winding down. Either I'm getting too busy or I'm growing out of it, but they're not the same. I mean, I enjoyed myself. But it wasn't, like, magical. I don't know what's wrong with me-- have the cons changed that much? Three years ago, I went to my first one after deciding it was time to put my life back together. So I showed up and told everyone something like, "Hi, I'm Carolyn, I'm alive and I'm planning to stay that way" And everything was magical. For the first time in ages, I'd felt loved and surrounded by loving, inspiring people. But I don't know why it's not coming back this year.
I guess there's some other stuff too, but it's not worth venting over.
Maybe I'm just ready to move on with my life and get out of New Hampshire and do something with myself.