Academia? Fuck Academia!
I take all Honors courses this year, Cinema for the semester, Creative Writing next semester, and do little-to-no activities. Yet my grades suck because I am lazy to the point where it destroys nearly all of my potential. For a long while now Tumblr had been my main procrastination tool. With Tumblr down however, I think my grades may go up but I have mixed feeling about that.
On the one hand, I love Tumblr. It is what really got me into the internet and the online community and I have met such nice people through it. I really enjoy having Tumblr as an outlet for anything I might be thinking about so to lose it would be pretty saddening. And yet there is a part of me that truly believes that Tumblr going offline is kind of good so long as I do not replace it with another way to distract myself. So I honestly can't decide if this is good or bad for me.
I do oftentimes believe that I'll get s paper done on a Sunday that way I can turn it in the day after, but I always end up wasting the day tumbling. (Or obsessively watching television online as I was doing a few weeks ago.) Now with Tumblr out of the way I have more opportunities to get shit done. Interms are coming up and it wouldn't hurt if I got the two lab reports, three papers, eight current event journals, and my Bonnie and Clyde questions done.
Ideally I would get all this done, actually do more then 80% of my nightly assignments, and start to get ahead in my English and Chemistry classes. IE the two classes I care most about. They really do require a time and energy spent on them to excel. If I could I would read all my books for English ahead of time, outline them, and collect all of my thoughts for reference. Then for Chemistry I would read the current chapter before we start on it in class and come in with nice pre-typed notes and a list of questions. But I know myself and that probably won't happen. Is it too much to ask for four more hours in a day so I can tumble for all I want and still get my assignments in?
But what makes my current situation worse is that I just joined a gym and have taken up graphic making, activities which take up a good amount of time. The looming Friday is factor as well, I will be sixteen and thus will be required to take on a job. Don't get me wrong, I want my own source of money but I am afraid that it will be too much for me. Besides, I would like to get my grades up before I even consider having to dedicate two to four hours a day to a job in a place I will most likely hate.
On the one hand, I love Tumblr. It is what really got me into the internet and the online community and I have met such nice people through it. I really enjoy having Tumblr as an outlet for anything I might be thinking about so to lose it would be pretty saddening. And yet there is a part of me that truly believes that Tumblr going offline is kind of good so long as I do not replace it with another way to distract myself. So I honestly can't decide if this is good or bad for me.
I do oftentimes believe that I'll get s paper done on a Sunday that way I can turn it in the day after, but I always end up wasting the day tumbling. (Or obsessively watching television online as I was doing a few weeks ago.) Now with Tumblr out of the way I have more opportunities to get shit done. Interms are coming up and it wouldn't hurt if I got the two lab reports, three papers, eight current event journals, and my Bonnie and Clyde questions done.
Ideally I would get all this done, actually do more then 80% of my nightly assignments, and start to get ahead in my English and Chemistry classes. IE the two classes I care most about. They really do require a time and energy spent on them to excel. If I could I would read all my books for English ahead of time, outline them, and collect all of my thoughts for reference. Then for Chemistry I would read the current chapter before we start on it in class and come in with nice pre-typed notes and a list of questions. But I know myself and that probably won't happen. Is it too much to ask for four more hours in a day so I can tumble for all I want and still get my assignments in?
But what makes my current situation worse is that I just joined a gym and have taken up graphic making, activities which take up a good amount of time. The looming Friday is factor as well, I will be sixteen and thus will be required to take on a job. Don't get me wrong, I want my own source of money but I am afraid that it will be too much for me. Besides, I would like to get my grades up before I even consider having to dedicate two to four hours a day to a job in a place I will most likely hate.