Palpitashyuns
So Niki's off to boracay until friday. i'll be hosting the morning show all alone, doing my numerous job descriptions all alone, eating lunch all alone...
yessss. hahahahaha.
you see, it's been a week since the inevitable question was asked (through a mixtape! i didn't expect that. and while i was waxing my leki leki! that was totally too much info for you), and the inevitable answer was given. so sheesh, i've got a boyfriend.
but since i was so hell bent on making myself believe that i was going to die a single woman with one trillion cats, i actually believed it. here i was, preparing for a life solitary, planning which countries to live in and which careers to try out, when all of a sudden here i am faced with the reality that yes, i am in a relationship that seems to be leading to like, you know, The Future. OMG. OMG. don't say that again.
not that i don't want it (i'm so going to get into trouble for this), but i guess since i've got this sickness called Emotional Retardation i need time, ALL THE TIME. time for this to sink in, time for that to register, blahblahblah it's all so boring. bottom line i guess is i'm glad for this time apart, so i can get a grip and kind of just think about the next step, about where i'm going and why all the things happening are happening.
seriously though, it's difficult to be in a relatioship with a guy you spend every minute of every single day with. after a while you kind of forget who's who and that's always so creepy, don't you think?
so here i am, trying to remind myself of certain things. of who i am and who my friends are. i'm realizing and accepting the fact that some people leave and some people go, and there's no need to keep certain people in your life if all they'll do is bring you down. i love that! i love the freedom that gives. that sometimes, sometimes, it's totally okay to walk away.
i'm totally rambling because there's SO MUCH TO DO OMG. and since no one reads LJ anymore anyway, that's freeing. that i can write AOIHFOIAWBCOUIHBOIWFGTOAIH and no one would care but me? like how it's supposed to be. yes ping, i agree.
i love you! whoopah!!
yessss. hahahahaha.
you see, it's been a week since the inevitable question was asked (through a mixtape! i didn't expect that. and while i was waxing my leki leki! that was totally too much info for you), and the inevitable answer was given. so sheesh, i've got a boyfriend.
but since i was so hell bent on making myself believe that i was going to die a single woman with one trillion cats, i actually believed it. here i was, preparing for a life solitary, planning which countries to live in and which careers to try out, when all of a sudden here i am faced with the reality that yes, i am in a relationship that seems to be leading to like, you know, The Future. OMG. OMG. don't say that again.
not that i don't want it (i'm so going to get into trouble for this), but i guess since i've got this sickness called Emotional Retardation i need time, ALL THE TIME. time for this to sink in, time for that to register, blahblahblah it's all so boring. bottom line i guess is i'm glad for this time apart, so i can get a grip and kind of just think about the next step, about where i'm going and why all the things happening are happening.
seriously though, it's difficult to be in a relatioship with a guy you spend every minute of every single day with. after a while you kind of forget who's who and that's always so creepy, don't you think?
so here i am, trying to remind myself of certain things. of who i am and who my friends are. i'm realizing and accepting the fact that some people leave and some people go, and there's no need to keep certain people in your life if all they'll do is bring you down. i love that! i love the freedom that gives. that sometimes, sometimes, it's totally okay to walk away.
i'm totally rambling because there's SO MUCH TO DO OMG. and since no one reads LJ anymore anyway, that's freeing. that i can write AOIHFOIAWBCOUIHBOIWFGTOAIH and no one would care but me? like how it's supposed to be. yes ping, i agree.
i love you! whoopah!!