The After-Parties In My Head
Because of the constant planning for our Valentine's Day event, it had stopped becoming a special day in my head. it was all about the reservations i needed to make, the bands i needed to organize, the love menu i had to put together, the sponsors who i really really want to throw off a building.
then i woke up at 430 in the morning that day, feeling a little bit nervous about how everything was going to be running. were the bands gonna perform well? are the sponsors going to be convinced that they need to buy spots at the station because the event is great? will people be there?
amidst all the stupid things that were swimming in my head, i turned and saw a single long-stemmed red rose on my desk. my brows furrowed and i dragged my groggy self to the incredibly messy desk. it was a rose from my dad -- with a handwritten note on a post-it. hahaha! aaaww how incredibly sweet! that was the moment i remembered that Valentine's was a big deal nga pala, both for lovers and single folk. he and my mom went to the spa for a couple's thing. ew i don't even want to elaborate on that.
my valentine's was really simple, a couple of surprises here and there. i kind of miss receiving flowers. i used to receive a lot of flowers. nowadays, men think they're a slight waste of money cos they wilt and die anyway. they don't get it! i just love being offered something beautiful--it's so much like real life. you get handed these lovely things and they only last a moment, but hey they were there for a moment. basta! ganon. cheesy na kung cheesy eh pake mo! haha.
i wish i could be cheesy in real life. i wish it wasn't so hard for me to show people how i felt for them. haha keber. medyo blackheartedness ang theme ko ngayon eh. pagminsan minsan fumufold, but i put people through so much crap before i fold and show them how much i love them, that maybe it's getting tiring?
anyway i'm really just blabbing because i always get depressed after a big party. i don't know why. i'm trying to shoo away the blackness by writing down all of these thoughts in my head so that i don't drown. i used to always drown.
i've got a couple of questions.
1) bakit ang tagaaaaaaaaal???
2) why naman did you have to do it then and there? i thought you respected our friendship :(
3) why won't you?
4) how are you?
5) why do people say i'm scary? i'm really warm you know. and i'm not always such a control freak. sometimes bossy, but that's cos things only get done around here when i boss you around!! i try to be nice about it naman ah. he he.
6) trust issues? no kaya! well okay. maybe just little?
okay so that's not a couple. i'm not so depressed anymore. but now i have to get ready for work. yeah. my life. i miss it.
thanks to everyone who supported the event! it went as planned and my heart is happy. i loved seeing your faces there. and i'm sorry i don't even get to sit down and talk during our events.
actually i don't really get to sit down and talk much, nowadays. anyway, stop being senti kris.
if i don't have time i'll make time, i miss talking to you. i owe you coffee, king.
now i don't know how to end this entry i'll just say k bye.
then i woke up at 430 in the morning that day, feeling a little bit nervous about how everything was going to be running. were the bands gonna perform well? are the sponsors going to be convinced that they need to buy spots at the station because the event is great? will people be there?
amidst all the stupid things that were swimming in my head, i turned and saw a single long-stemmed red rose on my desk. my brows furrowed and i dragged my groggy self to the incredibly messy desk. it was a rose from my dad -- with a handwritten note on a post-it. hahaha! aaaww how incredibly sweet! that was the moment i remembered that Valentine's was a big deal nga pala, both for lovers and single folk. he and my mom went to the spa for a couple's thing. ew i don't even want to elaborate on that.
my valentine's was really simple, a couple of surprises here and there. i kind of miss receiving flowers. i used to receive a lot of flowers. nowadays, men think they're a slight waste of money cos they wilt and die anyway. they don't get it! i just love being offered something beautiful--it's so much like real life. you get handed these lovely things and they only last a moment, but hey they were there for a moment. basta! ganon. cheesy na kung cheesy eh pake mo! haha.
i wish i could be cheesy in real life. i wish it wasn't so hard for me to show people how i felt for them. haha keber. medyo blackheartedness ang theme ko ngayon eh. pagminsan minsan fumufold, but i put people through so much crap before i fold and show them how much i love them, that maybe it's getting tiring?
anyway i'm really just blabbing because i always get depressed after a big party. i don't know why. i'm trying to shoo away the blackness by writing down all of these thoughts in my head so that i don't drown. i used to always drown.
i've got a couple of questions.
1) bakit ang tagaaaaaaaaal???
2) why naman did you have to do it then and there? i thought you respected our friendship :(
3) why won't you?
4) how are you?
5) why do people say i'm scary? i'm really warm you know. and i'm not always such a control freak. sometimes bossy, but that's cos things only get done around here when i boss you around!! i try to be nice about it naman ah. he he.
6) trust issues? no kaya! well okay. maybe just little?
okay so that's not a couple. i'm not so depressed anymore. but now i have to get ready for work. yeah. my life. i miss it.
thanks to everyone who supported the event! it went as planned and my heart is happy. i loved seeing your faces there. and i'm sorry i don't even get to sit down and talk during our events.
actually i don't really get to sit down and talk much, nowadays. anyway, stop being senti kris.
if i don't have time i'll make time, i miss talking to you. i owe you coffee, king.
now i don't know how to end this entry i'll just say k bye.