gray. need you like water in my lungs.
when will we give it up. I don't pose that as a question either. There are alot of things I don't understand. Like why people say they love each other? why should we dismiss a feeling because someone has set limits to what qualifies as "love"? what happens to the other endless lost feelings? why do we sabotage relationships because we are scared? can people read our minds, or do we act differently because of our current mindstate? why do we change ourselves to fit other people's expectations? or do we change ourselves for another, even deeper, reason and blame it on other people's expectations of us? why do we put up with people abusing us? because we think it's all okay because we love them? because we want to love them? why do we always have to justify our actions? "I got bored so I wrote this." Why do we dismiss thoughts because they are our own? I have a feeling that we either are or we aren't. People are either happy people or sad people. It's all how you view the world. You're either a successful person or an unsuccessful person. You have to be something though, I think. See I'm not sure but I think we're all idiots. I really do. Like take my friend Matt for example. His gf has been cheating and lying for over a year at least. And what does he do? He says he loves her. He makes the excuse (key word alot of us idiots like to use) that she's messed up and needs help. So he's helping this girl that only likes him when other girls talk about him. Life is weird like that. Do people find things because they search for them or do things come to us because we want them? It's funny. people want what u refuse to give them.
I hope everything works out with david's "babies" (aka ryan and brian). I don't want them in jail again. tomorrow, caitlin, linz, brittney and I are all going out for a girls night. cause boy problems are just driving us nuts. and then we might run away to richmond.. but you already knew we were crazy. ;)
a feeling we call "love":
- country music
- singing with caitlin
- playing piano
- wearing lace
- having someone say "thank you" when they really mean it
- being loved by your real friends
- kissing your dog
- a song that makes you sing