Looking back...
Been thinking lately. My time at UD has had some interesting results so far, and it's made me think about a lot of stuff, especially concerning my four years at Eastern. I didn't really notice it at the time, with so much always going on, but I was a really angry person in high school. And I was a really angry person at BIC. And now that I'm at UD, I can look back and I can see that, because...well, I'm not angry here. Not like I was then. Sure, there are people in my chem class who piss me off sometimes because they waste time at study sessions. There are people in my Japanese class that irk me because they want study sessions but never show up. There are the occasional annoyances of the dining halls closing early or of my precalc teacher being STRANGE. There are the everyday annoyances of people smoking in the vicinity or people being loud outside my dorm window at night.
These are all minor, though. I am, in general, a happy person right now. This is both unusual and wonderful. And it's given me an interesting perspective on the last six years of my life. It's gotten me to realize that all of the things that made me angry at Eastern, at BIC...I need to just accept them, accept that they happened, and move on. Sure I had three more or less useless science teachers. Sure I got consistent Bs in science classes in high school. That doesn't mean I can't learn this stuff. That doesn't mean I can't understand it. That doesn't mean I can't pull an A for a class or a semester or a year when all this is said and done.
And sure there were people I hated in color guard at Eastern. That doesn't mean guard can't be an enjoyable experience all around. And sure the year I was in indoor we sucked. That doesn't mean this season we can't pull it all out at Dayton and go for the massive win.
And sure I didn't get along with people at either school. Sure I didn't have a lot of friends in either place. That doesn't mean I can't here. That doesn't mean that there aren't billions of other people in this world to meet and get to know.
Sure I made a mistake picking my first major. That doesn't mean I can't pick up the pieces of culinary school and use everything I learned to my advantage.
There are so many of these, and thinking about each of them makes me happy, because UD has given me hope when I was giving up on myself. Sure I wouldn't be here doing this if it weren't for Eastern AND BIC, which makes it okay that I made these mistakes. It's cliched, but they were just bumps in the road of life.
Sure it's not going to be easy. But whoever said life was? And who cares? Life's worth it.
These are all minor, though. I am, in general, a happy person right now. This is both unusual and wonderful. And it's given me an interesting perspective on the last six years of my life. It's gotten me to realize that all of the things that made me angry at Eastern, at BIC...I need to just accept them, accept that they happened, and move on. Sure I had three more or less useless science teachers. Sure I got consistent Bs in science classes in high school. That doesn't mean I can't learn this stuff. That doesn't mean I can't understand it. That doesn't mean I can't pull an A for a class or a semester or a year when all this is said and done.
And sure there were people I hated in color guard at Eastern. That doesn't mean guard can't be an enjoyable experience all around. And sure the year I was in indoor we sucked. That doesn't mean this season we can't pull it all out at Dayton and go for the massive win.
And sure I didn't get along with people at either school. Sure I didn't have a lot of friends in either place. That doesn't mean I can't here. That doesn't mean that there aren't billions of other people in this world to meet and get to know.
Sure I made a mistake picking my first major. That doesn't mean I can't pick up the pieces of culinary school and use everything I learned to my advantage.
There are so many of these, and thinking about each of them makes me happy, because UD has given me hope when I was giving up on myself. Sure I wouldn't be here doing this if it weren't for Eastern AND BIC, which makes it okay that I made these mistakes. It's cliched, but they were just bumps in the road of life.
Sure it's not going to be easy. But whoever said life was? And who cares? Life's worth it.