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wow the last couple of days have been hetic..
:[ my sisters been in & out of the hostipal..
shes in so much pain..i feel so bad<3
i just want it to be all over with, so she can be happy :]
blah its stressful. i cant even imagine what shes going threw
but ANYWAYS about to watch the new girls next door.
Just got off work about an hour ago, it was crazy busy today..my feet hurt.
ryans working the floor set up till 4am and my mom and sister are at the hostipal so im all alone, but sometimes alone time is nice, i think to much though when im alone. gahhh, schools coming up, i use to be so excited for the 1st day of school, like unnorrmally[if thats a word] excited and now i just dread it. i just dont enjoy school period, unlike others. other than that i really need to quit smoking, its killing me slowly. I just feel like this when im this young, + my sister just quit, well she basically had too & now i have too my parents will not stop bitching i wish i had the will power too. :[ its gonna be a tough journey. im probably gonna turn into a mega bitch, i have no idea what to expect..gah i wish i never started! i just gotta believe in myself that i CAN DO IT ha
blah sometimes i feel like im getting nowhere in life.
i just wanna do something different, instead of smoke pot everyday, i want to meet new people. i want to have a bestfriend, i mean i use to have alot of bestfriends, i guess they always end up fucking you over or fading away its life
jkeefjrkgljrghktr
thats all.
:[ my sisters been in & out of the hostipal..
shes in so much pain..i feel so bad<3
i just want it to be all over with, so she can be happy :]
blah its stressful. i cant even imagine what shes going threw
but ANYWAYS about to watch the new girls next door.
Just got off work about an hour ago, it was crazy busy today..my feet hurt.
ryans working the floor set up till 4am and my mom and sister are at the hostipal so im all alone, but sometimes alone time is nice, i think to much though when im alone. gahhh, schools coming up, i use to be so excited for the 1st day of school, like unnorrmally[if thats a word] excited and now i just dread it. i just dont enjoy school period, unlike others. other than that i really need to quit smoking, its killing me slowly. I just feel like this when im this young, + my sister just quit, well she basically had too & now i have too my parents will not stop bitching i wish i had the will power too. :[ its gonna be a tough journey. im probably gonna turn into a mega bitch, i have no idea what to expect..gah i wish i never started! i just gotta believe in myself that i CAN DO IT ha
blah sometimes i feel like im getting nowhere in life.
i just wanna do something different, instead of smoke pot everyday, i want to meet new people. i want to have a bestfriend, i mean i use to have alot of bestfriends, i guess they always end up fucking you over or fading away its life
jkeefjrkgljrghktr
thats all.