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Long time no post. Well, I moved to Portland. I nixed my plans to move back to Chicago/Elgin to live with my folks and save tons of money on rent, food and living and went for the impromptu move to a big city instead. Things fell into place quite nicely actually, despite being repeatedly admonished by my friends in Eugene for moving away from them. Within a short week of looking I had found a house, job and u-haul which I packed up rather spontaneously (3 hours after waking up and saying, "Okay, I guess I'll move today.") on a Sunday morning and drove to Portland without an ounce of goodbye to friends. It's kinda how I do--and everyone half-expected this. been
So, I've been in Portland for 12 days now. Since arriving I have:
1.) Maxed out my debit card to the tune of, count it, four $35 overdraft fees (two of which were kindly repealed).
2.) Got wasted in a bar and cried my eyes out yelling, "This is the devil's town!!" when my Eugene friends came to visit.
3.) Have started work at Yumm and will soon be given a managerial position...and benefits!
4.) Have continued training for my triathlon--guts, tears and fears all rolled into one 16 mile bike ride (not to mention a open-water mile swim and 5k run on many bridges...who talked me into this?! Oh, yeah, me.
5) Reached a new level of loneliness.
So to recap living without parent support is new, unexciting and not as easy as I had hoped. Sometimes I really miss my close girl friends and the community I had built during my past 5 years in Eugene. But, only once have I gotten drunk and cried about it--when they came to visit me and made my 1st weekend in Portland super memorable. Work is work and training is harder work. And, well, I want a boyfriend again. Although I have little time for anything between training, work and Bosko I would at least like someone to come home to a couple nights a week. My bed feels lonelier in Portland than it did in Eugene--and it had been empty of a boyfriend for a whole year even in Eugene. I don't have time to even meet boys--nor do I think, pardon the cliche, I am loving myself enough right now to actually handle another person loving me/loving another person. But, I dunno, the lack of friends and community is making my heart beat slower and my head feel lonelier. No time no time. I need more friends--but I feel like I hardly even have time for that! Hopefully I can see my buddies this weekend and cure these blues. Things will be better once our restaurant launches and we are finally open for business (June 1st!)
So, I've been in Portland for 12 days now. Since arriving I have:
1.) Maxed out my debit card to the tune of, count it, four $35 overdraft fees (two of which were kindly repealed).
2.) Got wasted in a bar and cried my eyes out yelling, "This is the devil's town!!" when my Eugene friends came to visit.
3.) Have started work at Yumm and will soon be given a managerial position...and benefits!
4.) Have continued training for my triathlon--guts, tears and fears all rolled into one 16 mile bike ride (not to mention a open-water mile swim and 5k run on many bridges...who talked me into this?! Oh, yeah, me.
5) Reached a new level of loneliness.
So to recap living without parent support is new, unexciting and not as easy as I had hoped. Sometimes I really miss my close girl friends and the community I had built during my past 5 years in Eugene. But, only once have I gotten drunk and cried about it--when they came to visit me and made my 1st weekend in Portland super memorable. Work is work and training is harder work. And, well, I want a boyfriend again. Although I have little time for anything between training, work and Bosko I would at least like someone to come home to a couple nights a week. My bed feels lonelier in Portland than it did in Eugene--and it had been empty of a boyfriend for a whole year even in Eugene. I don't have time to even meet boys--nor do I think, pardon the cliche, I am loving myself enough right now to actually handle another person loving me/loving another person. But, I dunno, the lack of friends and community is making my heart beat slower and my head feel lonelier. No time no time. I need more friends--but I feel like I hardly even have time for that! Hopefully I can see my buddies this weekend and cure these blues. Things will be better once our restaurant launches and we are finally open for business (June 1st!)