numerous revelations

[thecrowobsessed]

i sit perusing my staff application
i read the same question over and over
i wonder what i should write
lies to impress...
or the truth
i think they would want to hear the truth
they are going to get about 30 applications of bs
so ill be unique and write the truth
and nothing but the truth

but is it worth it?
will they even read it?
i don't know but i hope they do
i think i deserve the position
but do they?
i hope so, i think so

i realized something today
why do people hate?
im tired of hating
i dont think i actually hate
i really dont, i dislike
i do not hate kristen, i dont like the things she said
i do not hate lumberjack, i dont like the things he did
i do not hate albert, i dont the lies he starts
i do not hate my uncle, i dont like what he did
i do not hate the beach, i just prefer the pool
i do not hate school, i just find it dull
i do not hate band, i just get frustrated sometimes
im not going to hate anymore
i wish i could apologize to all those people
that i said i hated and that i wronged
but i don't think im strong enough yet
one day. one day.

ana made me realize that life is too short
seriously too short
im not going to waste it
it is precious
its all we have
people should cherish it. few do.
im not going to spend it being depressed, angry, sad, vengeful or hateful
so i wont.

food for thought