im back... maybe
s0 ive decided that maybe and just maybe... i will start writing in here again. i lost all my friends on here they all moved on or whatnot. so im not positive but for now its not bad and im kind of enjoying myself and i need to start writing more so why not write on here and on allpoetry and stuff but yeah....
so... right now its christmas i guess. really early in the morning christmas. i should get going to sleep but im waiting to talk to chris and contemplating everything and i dont know. life is eventful right now.
im in florida with the family which is always fun except grandpa's getting old which makes me sad and my dad cried in church cause he used to go to church and believe and shit but now hes seeing how people really are and it upsets him that the world is an ashtray and that religion these days is used for all the wrong things... for example ---> war and hatred and welll a "higher" or "better" race. (what shitheads)
i was cornered by the family today because id really rather not move back to the states. im going to have to but i dont know it really is way more stressful in the states. i like where i am now and quite honestly if youve never lived out of the states then you have no idea how it is to have to come back or how much of a difference there is.
i miss my old houston friends... not all of them because some of the most lovely people in the world have kept in touch and i hope to see some or most of them in the next few days but other... i dont know. i feel like i cant go back to them. ive been trying but it just isnt working. phone calls and emails and messages with no return just dont work you know.
my birthday is the 27th... i turn a big whoppin' 19 years old. im such a baby still compared to my friends. i dont think they see it like i see it cause sometimes i feel like such a baby around them... i dont know. but anyhow on my birthday ill be taking a plane and 2 hourse in the car and so id really like to do something when i get to houston.
i also hope to dye my hair bright colors.... what do you think 3 or 5 streaks just in the back of my hair. just at the bottem so it doenst show too much but just enough. and of course itd show when i have my hair up. if its 3 strips i dont know what colors i could do cause i want each strip to be a diff color so i was thinking: blue no matter what, maybe magenta and maybe like a bright red but i dont know. color choices are as follows...
blue, green, red, magenta, violet, pink, orange, or i dont know anything in between.
i want crazy colors but not much you know.
well i should get going since its really late but anyhow i dont know if anyone will read this. if you do then maybe just maybe ill start updating here again. it would be nice to get out whats on my mind for once. like how i can ... type really fast now and i really like my gparents keyboard
buenas noches.... <3
-em