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Hey everybody. I haven't updated in a loooooong time primarily because I don't really have the internet at home so I don't get the chance. I'm pretty swell these days. Home is good and all my friends rock. They make life worth living. My job bites the big one but, who's doesn't?
I think I'm in a better place than I was when school ended. Anyone who knows me knows I was feeling pretty shitty at the end of school. Because of school related issues and because well, I was still in love with someone who couldn't love me back. Well kiddo's, time away from both situations has proven to be good;
As far as school and talent is concerned, all I can do is work harder and practice more, I reaaaaaally should dance more. This summer will be vocally very challanging for me and that is a good thing! I'm going to learn a lot. I really hope I find the money to go back to school...
As far as the other situation is concerned; If someone is simply not capable of loving you than they are not capable. I've accepted that fact and am moving on from it. Things were great and than they changed and that's that. You can't get things back like that. *shrugs* there are a lot of people in the world and if one person isn't capable of loving you than someone else will be. period. However at this point I don't want anyone. the last thing I need is someone. The thing i miss most about all of it is the intimate talks. Feeling a connection with someone. THAT I could use. But with no foundation that is useless too.
I have a SHITLOAD of music to learn for my review at theater barn. It's all Gershwin and i've never heard any of it and I'm fucked because I don't have a voice teacher. YIKES.
Edges soon, that should be nice. I need to get memorized though.
anyway. I may not update again. like. for a long fucking time. so peace.
I think I'm in a better place than I was when school ended. Anyone who knows me knows I was feeling pretty shitty at the end of school. Because of school related issues and because well, I was still in love with someone who couldn't love me back. Well kiddo's, time away from both situations has proven to be good;
As far as school and talent is concerned, all I can do is work harder and practice more, I reaaaaaally should dance more. This summer will be vocally very challanging for me and that is a good thing! I'm going to learn a lot. I really hope I find the money to go back to school...
As far as the other situation is concerned; If someone is simply not capable of loving you than they are not capable. I've accepted that fact and am moving on from it. Things were great and than they changed and that's that. You can't get things back like that. *shrugs* there are a lot of people in the world and if one person isn't capable of loving you than someone else will be. period. However at this point I don't want anyone. the last thing I need is someone. The thing i miss most about all of it is the intimate talks. Feeling a connection with someone. THAT I could use. But with no foundation that is useless too.
I have a SHITLOAD of music to learn for my review at theater barn. It's all Gershwin and i've never heard any of it and I'm fucked because I don't have a voice teacher. YIKES.
Edges soon, that should be nice. I need to get memorized though.
anyway. I may not update again. like. for a long fucking time. so peace.