moody // monday
Wrote this today after a "festive" weekend i guess you can say?
i dont know how much more
i can take because you
think this is getting better
and i think this is getting worse.
what you dont understand is
that im keeping us together
for your sake more than mine.
im not my own person anymore
i forgot how to breathe
i need to find me again
So yes, we're on a break, but I don't know where it is leading...perhaps the opposite direction than either one of us intended it to go? Perhaps... I just...blah! Everything is so crazy, and it's not like I'd be seeing him anyway, right? What's the point?
I'd have my single summer to party hard because who knows what'll happen. So many things going on with so many people. Then September... who know's what'll happen then! There's that SJCI welcome back dance... oh yes, bean you know we're going to be the cool juniors who still goto those because yes, we do kick ass.
Whatever, im off to do a little night swimming then shower then goto bed... I'll probably talk to him on the phone but really, when I see that he calls I don't really want to return his phone calls anymore. Maybe it's just the mood that I'm in.
That doesn't matter anymore, right? Must help KTBN with her dilema... yes dear your time to shine!
With all the love I have left,
Nicole
i dont know how much more
i can take because you
think this is getting better
and i think this is getting worse.
what you dont understand is
that im keeping us together
for your sake more than mine.
im not my own person anymore
i forgot how to breathe
i need to find me again
So yes, we're on a break, but I don't know where it is leading...perhaps the opposite direction than either one of us intended it to go? Perhaps... I just...blah! Everything is so crazy, and it's not like I'd be seeing him anyway, right? What's the point?
I'd have my single summer to party hard because who knows what'll happen. So many things going on with so many people. Then September... who know's what'll happen then! There's that SJCI welcome back dance... oh yes, bean you know we're going to be the cool juniors who still goto those because yes, we do kick ass.
Whatever, im off to do a little night swimming then shower then goto bed... I'll probably talk to him on the phone but really, when I see that he calls I don't really want to return his phone calls anymore. Maybe it's just the mood that I'm in.
That doesn't matter anymore, right? Must help KTBN with her dilema... yes dear your time to shine!
With all the love I have left,
Nicole