Self Deprecating Post about Recent Shitty School Performance
I sux. I totally sux. Dr. Stover's class suxs too. Subject: 19th Cent. Major American Writers... slave girl story, moby dick, and a poe story.... I studied for quite a long damn time...during work on Saturday, a good portion of the day Sunday, and this morning. I thought I had it all down, apparently I didn't. She asked stupid detail orientated questions that slipped my mind the moment I got the test. Stupid shit I knew. I'm sure I got at least a C on it. I asked my friends from the class about several questions after the test and checked some out with my notes as well, and I got at least 6-10 wrong.
I don't get grades that aren't As. I don't. At least until this semester. I've been fucking up royally lately. Procrastinating hard core, turning in assignments late, just scraping by... I needed an A on that exam to get an A in the course. My first exam in there was a B and now this one is no doubt a C. I only have one more exam...the final and a research paper left in that course. I'm fucked and sooo not in the good way.
Did I really think I was going to be able to read ALL of Moby Dick during a weekend? A weekend where I worked 16.5 hours, no less? My planning/study skills have been shit lately. Because I've been able to get by with doing a little amount of effort and receiving good results, I think it will work for everything. It won't.
I'm cutting back on my social life. Wayyyy back. Nearly all of my free time will be focused on school from here until the end of the semester. I can't fuck up my GPA like this. I have three research papers and a project coming up soon, I need to start focusing like three weeks ago, let alone today...right here...right now.
I know you all think I'm obsessive about my grades and that I shouldn't focus on just getting A's and it's okay to get B's, etc. But it's not. Not for me. That's fine if that's your own philosophy; it's not mine. Thank you for your support and attempts to keep my spirits up, but I will still continue to think about my schoolwork in this manner. My only explanation is that when you are an extremely competitive person, you don't settle with less than perfection, or the damn closest you can come to it. (Most) Florida people are inherently lax for the most part and don't understand this mindset (remember..FL is ranked like 48/50 in quality of education)...it’s a northern thing. Competition is cut throat and you don't settle for less than your best, because everyone is also cutthroat and will take your opportunities without thinking twice.
Alright, I'm off to study for the second exam of the day...Spanish. Wish me luck and determination...I'll need it.
I don't get grades that aren't As. I don't. At least until this semester. I've been fucking up royally lately. Procrastinating hard core, turning in assignments late, just scraping by... I needed an A on that exam to get an A in the course. My first exam in there was a B and now this one is no doubt a C. I only have one more exam...the final and a research paper left in that course. I'm fucked and sooo not in the good way.
Did I really think I was going to be able to read ALL of Moby Dick during a weekend? A weekend where I worked 16.5 hours, no less? My planning/study skills have been shit lately. Because I've been able to get by with doing a little amount of effort and receiving good results, I think it will work for everything. It won't.
I'm cutting back on my social life. Wayyyy back. Nearly all of my free time will be focused on school from here until the end of the semester. I can't fuck up my GPA like this. I have three research papers and a project coming up soon, I need to start focusing like three weeks ago, let alone today...right here...right now.
I know you all think I'm obsessive about my grades and that I shouldn't focus on just getting A's and it's okay to get B's, etc. But it's not. Not for me. That's fine if that's your own philosophy; it's not mine. Thank you for your support and attempts to keep my spirits up, but I will still continue to think about my schoolwork in this manner. My only explanation is that when you are an extremely competitive person, you don't settle with less than perfection, or the damn closest you can come to it. (Most) Florida people are inherently lax for the most part and don't understand this mindset (remember..FL is ranked like 48/50 in quality of education)...it’s a northern thing. Competition is cut throat and you don't settle for less than your best, because everyone is also cutthroat and will take your opportunities without thinking twice.
Alright, I'm off to study for the second exam of the day...Spanish. Wish me luck and determination...I'll need it.