Peace and Contacting Carmel Peeps
I feel. . .
- an inner peace recently.
- a desire to make peace with everyone around me and forget silly petty differences or squabbles. Yes, I am even considering returning one of the many phone calls I haven't answered from the one who caused me so much pain. (see previous writings from about October on)
- happy with my body, yeah, I could still loose some poundage, but who couldn't? It's not a major issue for me anymore, thankfully.
Let me just make a note here; No, I'm not stoned or drunk; I'm just happy.
- very much rested after a nice long spring break without school, owltv, or bankatlantic.
- anxious for my skydiving on Saturday.
- excited about my upcoming birthday (Wednesday!!)
Things seem to be working themselves out and despite my still hectic schedule and chaos (relating to owltv and sg) on the horizon, I am not stressed.
I am happy and I have no other source of happiness other than myself.
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I went online last night and did some research on peeps from Carmel (my old high school before I moved to Florida and the high school that I consider my 'real high school') that I haven't talked to in forever, I’m talking years here . . .
I'm glad to report that everyone is doing well. I am quite happy for them. But, I have to admit, there is this one chick that was always rude and bitchy to me for no reason and not just me, like lots o people, and karma works in great ways; she suffered horribly from anorexia. Yet, obviously she wasn't too upset about it, because she let her university newspaper do a feature story on it. And, yes I know, it’s really shitty to be happy about someone else's tragedy, but she was constantly an uber bitch to me.
I want to contact a lot of my old friends, but I feel odd. I haven't talked to most of them in years, prob about 4 or 5 years. It seems odd to contact someone that you haven't talked for that long, but I want to know about what's going on in their lives and I wish we hadn't lost contact. Obviously I still care about them, otherwise I wouldn't look them up, but to contacting them is another thing. We would have so little in common at this point and it would be weird and awkward and . . .
I tried contacting the first real love of my life a week or two ago (I don't know why I have this recent desire to dig up my past) via email. I haven't talked to him since we broke up at the end of the summer of my freshman year, so it’s been about a year and a half or two. He didn't respond. I don't blame him, we had a very emotional breakup, but I want to keep in touch with him. It really a shame that two people who were so close should lose contact. Anyway, I'm sure that's why I feel hesitant about contacting peeps from Carmel.
[Sigh]
Lana, what's your take on the whole thing? Should I contact peeps from Carmel, or not? Whaddya say?
The gods of Sleep are beckoning. . .
Peace!
Amanda
- an inner peace recently.
- a desire to make peace with everyone around me and forget silly petty differences or squabbles. Yes, I am even considering returning one of the many phone calls I haven't answered from the one who caused me so much pain. (see previous writings from about October on)
- happy with my body, yeah, I could still loose some poundage, but who couldn't? It's not a major issue for me anymore, thankfully.
Let me just make a note here; No, I'm not stoned or drunk; I'm just happy.
- very much rested after a nice long spring break without school, owltv, or bankatlantic.
- anxious for my skydiving on Saturday.
- excited about my upcoming birthday (Wednesday!!)
Things seem to be working themselves out and despite my still hectic schedule and chaos (relating to owltv and sg) on the horizon, I am not stressed.
I am happy and I have no other source of happiness other than myself.
----
I went online last night and did some research on peeps from Carmel (my old high school before I moved to Florida and the high school that I consider my 'real high school') that I haven't talked to in forever, I’m talking years here . . .
I'm glad to report that everyone is doing well. I am quite happy for them. But, I have to admit, there is this one chick that was always rude and bitchy to me for no reason and not just me, like lots o people, and karma works in great ways; she suffered horribly from anorexia. Yet, obviously she wasn't too upset about it, because she let her university newspaper do a feature story on it. And, yes I know, it’s really shitty to be happy about someone else's tragedy, but she was constantly an uber bitch to me.
I want to contact a lot of my old friends, but I feel odd. I haven't talked to most of them in years, prob about 4 or 5 years. It seems odd to contact someone that you haven't talked for that long, but I want to know about what's going on in their lives and I wish we hadn't lost contact. Obviously I still care about them, otherwise I wouldn't look them up, but to contacting them is another thing. We would have so little in common at this point and it would be weird and awkward and . . .
I tried contacting the first real love of my life a week or two ago (I don't know why I have this recent desire to dig up my past) via email. I haven't talked to him since we broke up at the end of the summer of my freshman year, so it’s been about a year and a half or two. He didn't respond. I don't blame him, we had a very emotional breakup, but I want to keep in touch with him. It really a shame that two people who were so close should lose contact. Anyway, I'm sure that's why I feel hesitant about contacting peeps from Carmel.
[Sigh]
Lana, what's your take on the whole thing? Should I contact peeps from Carmel, or not? Whaddya say?
The gods of Sleep are beckoning. . .
Peace!
Amanda