happy birthday
well i feel like a total asshole.im so very happy that im leaving this place.im completely done with it.completely.i love my friends but i cant handle them.i cant handle myself around them.i realized today that if i ended up staying here much longer that id probably fucking shoot my face off.im really losing it.i really think that when i go to seattle that i can reinvent myself.i really need to do that.i fucking hate the person that i am here.everyone knows me.everyone knows my past.i dont want them to.i dont like my past.i dont like my memories.i just want new ones.good ones.not foggy drunk ones.im happy im going to seattle.im happy someone loves me there.im happy im not going to be here anymore.