theres a car crash inside me. and what's more theres a bomb in the car
to save you read this i'll just say i dont know who the fuck i am, what the fuck im doing, where the hell i'm going and what the fuck i am. i dont know if im losing myself or living.
i dont know if jen's right or if i am..
and while all this may sound cute and cliche im unerved, confused and feel like a big load of fuck to be honest. shit fuck shit.
what the fuck am i doing?
i've had fun. i'm having fun. but im so selfish coz theres something funny going on in my chest...i dont know what its saying.
i think others are thinking im losing myself but i feel like i've just discovered myself. but i can't change. because the tarots where right and that strong female voice is telling to stop being a fucking cunt.stop being something im not. basically just *slap slap* this isnt who you are you fucking moron and i wouldnt except this. but i feel like theres a tugawar happening in me, in my chest. im happy but im doubtful. im excited but im worried.
but look honestly i have no fucking idea. and i lied before, i dont know if im finding myself im just trying to. i'm trying to make the other tarots fit so here i go
i dont know if im gay straight or bi. i dont know if im being a fucking sheep or just seeing something i want and going for it. i dont know what my heads screaming or what my mouth is saying. i feel out of control and confused but grateful for it and fairly happy and hungry and ... doubtful.
i'd love to say i dont give a fuck what anyone else says, and in whole i think the decision of who i am is up to me but there will always be those influences but all this aside i ask
am i being fake. am i being untrue to myself. am i changing. am i copying and trying to hard or some shit like that..
is this not me?
who the fuck am i?
i dont know if jen's right or if i am..
and while all this may sound cute and cliche im unerved, confused and feel like a big load of fuck to be honest. shit fuck shit.
what the fuck am i doing?
i've had fun. i'm having fun. but im so selfish coz theres something funny going on in my chest...i dont know what its saying.
i think others are thinking im losing myself but i feel like i've just discovered myself. but i can't change. because the tarots where right and that strong female voice is telling to stop being a fucking cunt.stop being something im not. basically just *slap slap* this isnt who you are you fucking moron and i wouldnt except this. but i feel like theres a tugawar happening in me, in my chest. im happy but im doubtful. im excited but im worried.
but look honestly i have no fucking idea. and i lied before, i dont know if im finding myself im just trying to. i'm trying to make the other tarots fit so here i go
i dont know if im gay straight or bi. i dont know if im being a fucking sheep or just seeing something i want and going for it. i dont know what my heads screaming or what my mouth is saying. i feel out of control and confused but grateful for it and fairly happy and hungry and ... doubtful.
i'd love to say i dont give a fuck what anyone else says, and in whole i think the decision of who i am is up to me but there will always be those influences but all this aside i ask
am i being fake. am i being untrue to myself. am i changing. am i copying and trying to hard or some shit like that..
is this not me?
who the fuck am i?