i've started this a million times...
I am just ridiculous today. I keep waiting for my phone to ring. I will him to call me. I have a million stories running through my mind. I have started this entry a million times. I wrote out an entire imaginary scenario of what hanging out with him on Saturday could be like. I also have written several smaller pieces about reality and how I need to face it. He might not call. He may have decided that he is not interested in me. He may have decided that he doesn't want to see me again. He may not want to record me. He may never call again.
On the flip side, he may be really busy. He may be fixing up his motorcycle. He may be recording cds for me. He may be cleaning up his place and getting everything ready for hanging out tomorrow night. He may be clearing his schedule to spend maximum time alone with me. Everything might be completely ok.
Do you see how crazy I am?! I just can't be let down anymore. My little heart is terrified of getting broken again. If he blows me off tomorrow I'm going to make myself a delicious dinner and get really really drunk by myself and write miserable songs about heartbreak.
I hope he doesn't.
On the flip side, he may be really busy. He may be fixing up his motorcycle. He may be recording cds for me. He may be cleaning up his place and getting everything ready for hanging out tomorrow night. He may be clearing his schedule to spend maximum time alone with me. Everything might be completely ok.
Do you see how crazy I am?! I just can't be let down anymore. My little heart is terrified of getting broken again. If he blows me off tomorrow I'm going to make myself a delicious dinner and get really really drunk by myself and write miserable songs about heartbreak.
I hope he doesn't.