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Well it's my first entry in this new journal. I have a lot to catch people up on but most is not relevent at this moment so I will not bore you. The guy that I was talking about in my previous journal, Kirk, is still here. I still like, but I'm still not sure that he likes me. In fact I'm pretty sure that he doesn't. I just got of the phone with him and he said that the kiss we shared last night made things weird. I'm at the point in my life where I would give anything to have a boyfriend. I would love for a guy to like me as much as I like him. This is one reason why having all straight friends was a blessing. I didn't have this want last semester. I did but it wasn't this intense. I don't know I guess I just need to get used to being alone. Grrrrr...I hate the fact that as humans we feel like we need to have that kind of companion ship. I just wish we were asexual...that may sound weird but if we were asexual to begin with the we wouldn't miss the sex or anything. I really honestly do not care about the sex or anything having to do with sex I would just like someone to be cuddly with and just kiss and be happy. Like I said befor I just wish that we didn't have this need to fell that kind of companion ship. Why can't we just be fine with being friends with people? Why can't we just be fine alone and by ourselves?