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[theconfoozedone]

What is more painful?
an external or internal self mutilation
being a bully physically or mentally?
I feel that the mind is much more fragile than the body and i am sorry
it is stuck in my head that i am a bully
i kill myself mentally by pushing others away
i have found much greater ways of creating pain other than breaking someones arm
i sear there mind
i break there heart and in the process i severly damage myself
i believe pain is my drug,
causing it to myself and others
i appologize for doing it i am sick
i am an addict
and the longer time passes the greater i have to cause pain and mental anguish
its not my intention i am just a heartless bastard that is self centered and manipulative
i understand if i am never forgiven
i dont deserve it. not one bit.

the playlist i have to go with this:
hoobastank- the reason
Seal- dont cry
Killswitch Engage- end of the heartache
Crossfade- cold

if i can think of more i will add to it but thats what i could remember offthe top of my head