once something dies you cant make it live
well....im sittin here at leys.....and i just realized..that i got really sad a minute ago. i feel lonley. like....secluded.....from everyone...everyone here i like....but its just i dont feel like i belong...like no one understands me. i want so bad right now to just sit and to talk someone about everything.....it sucks cuz i only get this way once and a while. i want to just.....ball my eyes out to someone. and i want them to understand. i dont have anyone tho.....and it sucks....alot. i wish i could find someone thats just like me. that i can open up to. for some reason i just want to give it all away...everything. i dont want to get hurt again.....but i just want someone to know everything and help me. it fucking sucks. cuz it feels like theres no on in the wolrd for me. like im not meant to be with someone. i want to tell you everything. so if you have the time sometime...call me. cuz it would help..... i want more then anything right now to give everything to someone. i need more then anything to let someone feel loved and make them happy. with me there are no disagreements....there is no problem....i wish i could find you........i feel too much. i wish i could......tell you.......everything.....
i write everything down except whats on my mind