"...all my troubles seemed so far away."
Yesterday was Penny's birthday. I called to tell her "Happy". She said thanks and that she was going to a movie and then on a hike. I got her some simple gifts. She called & asked if she could stop by. I said yes and she did. We sat down on my couch. She told me she has a boyfriend.
The thing is, I've KNOWN this for forever, but it was the first time she's admitted it to me. It was a big step for her--one she'd been dreading because she doesn't want to hurt me. Funny, I've been doing a lot of strange things in the past year so I wouldn't hurt HER. I, too, had never admitted that I'd dated someone else, so I guess we're even.
I did tell her that it may have been easier on us (because it hasn't been) if we had just come out & admitted it sooner. I told her about Clarity, and how after we had "broken up" (I use quotes because I was too afraid to actually commit to "going out" with her or "having a girlfriend") that, once she had found a new boyfriend, she told me right away. Which I really, really appreciated. Sure it stung (I'VE BEEN REPLACED!), but it's necessary & helps the healing occur quickly (hopefully). Like ripping the duct tape off a rescued hostage's mouth (maybe).
Anyway, it was very cathartic. We had a really nice talk about other non-romantic, non-emotional things. It ended with a hug.
I'll miss her.
The thing is, I've KNOWN this for forever, but it was the first time she's admitted it to me. It was a big step for her--one she'd been dreading because she doesn't want to hurt me. Funny, I've been doing a lot of strange things in the past year so I wouldn't hurt HER. I, too, had never admitted that I'd dated someone else, so I guess we're even.
I did tell her that it may have been easier on us (because it hasn't been) if we had just come out & admitted it sooner. I told her about Clarity, and how after we had "broken up" (I use quotes because I was too afraid to actually commit to "going out" with her or "having a girlfriend") that, once she had found a new boyfriend, she told me right away. Which I really, really appreciated. Sure it stung (I'VE BEEN REPLACED!), but it's necessary & helps the healing occur quickly (hopefully). Like ripping the duct tape off a rescued hostage's mouth (maybe).
Anyway, it was very cathartic. We had a really nice talk about other non-romantic, non-emotional things. It ended with a hug.
I'll miss her.