Apr 15, 2007 14:41
Well the shit's hit the fan again. I have so much work to do with architecture and pin up is right around the corner. I am sooooo busy. And of course on top of that, I'm going through my usual cycles of depression. My choice to stay single for a while was a silly one; I realized I'm not truly happy unless I'm moving heaven and earth for a young woman whom i care for. And even with that in the past, I wasn't happy because in the past they've pretty much been apathetic towards me. You'd think someone would jump at said circumstance, but apparently not.
So I'm back to the usual rotation:
1) Trying to find someone new at school, but not at parties b/c i dont have time due to studio...
2) Becoming completely obsessed with one of my best friends; who is NOT interested, and I end of hurting myself every time.
3) Random friends trying to get me to date friends of theirs.
4) Start talking to Grace again, only to have her rip my heart out again
5) Swear off dating for another year.
6) repeat process.
But fortunately I'm getting ready to go back home soon, and will be able to relax and get back to working and hanging out with CPs again, and the old Celebration gang. Just got to get through a few more days.