Leaving
There are so many transitions I am experiencing inside my head.
I should move on. There are a lot of unfinished thoughts that I have and needs proper closure. 2014 is still a blur for me. About time I step out from being institutionalized. It is odd to find myself faltering as I try to figure myself out. As though it is difficult to find myself if i am not in any particular organization or institution. I feel that I lost a lot of things and maybe people. As a servant of Allah, there is still so many things that I feel so... incomplete. I need to find who I am. I lost myself somewhere. I enjoy getting lost but apparently people around me are more perturbed that I am lost, even more than myself. It's either people enjoy figuring other people out or figure me out or I am just being pissed about every single question people are asking me. I mean, it's my life. Why on hoots am I obliged to explain why I do what I do? Will your life change if I share with you my story? Are your going to change my life if I pour my heart out to you? Why? Why? Why are you so damn concerned?
I am going to shut this account soon but in the mean time, I know that there are entries that I have written that came from the heart and in a few years time, I would like to quote myself. I give myself, a month.