Meh
Well its no lie. Kyle was 100% right. I primarily use my LJ to express my negative feelings. If you think I am joking I suppose you could just check the last two and a half months and realize I have updated maybe 5 times. There was a time I would update 20-30 times a month. The reason I havent updated much has primarily to do with me being so happy in my life. Lauren is 100% responsible, I don't need to tell you that.
Unfortuantely she is in Britain for the week. It didnt really click until I was driving home from her house and I realized she was gone for 8 days and I wouldnt see her. I have been miserable and sad these past two days. Not quite all of it has to do with her being gone, but mostly. The other portion is I want school over. I'll get to that later.
I haven't gotten much sleep the past two nights either. Last night I had the most bizzarre dreams and I also keep dreaming of Laur. I can't get her out of my mind. I love her so much. I never thought this would ever happen to me. So many years of lonliness and fighting the world...and I am finally so happy. I have faith everything will work out next year when she is in WVU. I am taking 18 credits next semester to get out of WCU on time. I may be very confident in our love, but if I have gotten a little watery because of her being gone for 8 days I cant imagine myself when she goes to college. But it'll work out for the best. I love her so much. I've already forgotten my life before her. This time next year hopefully I'll get to start over.
As for school, well I want it to end so quickly. Projects and tests and such are coming down hard this semester. But I have no choice but to do well. I am so motivated to get out of WCU its not funny.
Thats about it. I just want it to be sunday.
Unfortuantely she is in Britain for the week. It didnt really click until I was driving home from her house and I realized she was gone for 8 days and I wouldnt see her. I have been miserable and sad these past two days. Not quite all of it has to do with her being gone, but mostly. The other portion is I want school over. I'll get to that later.
I haven't gotten much sleep the past two nights either. Last night I had the most bizzarre dreams and I also keep dreaming of Laur. I can't get her out of my mind. I love her so much. I never thought this would ever happen to me. So many years of lonliness and fighting the world...and I am finally so happy. I have faith everything will work out next year when she is in WVU. I am taking 18 credits next semester to get out of WCU on time. I may be very confident in our love, but if I have gotten a little watery because of her being gone for 8 days I cant imagine myself when she goes to college. But it'll work out for the best. I love her so much. I've already forgotten my life before her. This time next year hopefully I'll get to start over.
As for school, well I want it to end so quickly. Projects and tests and such are coming down hard this semester. But I have no choice but to do well. I am so motivated to get out of WCU its not funny.
Thats about it. I just want it to be sunday.