life is unrehearsable & the past is irreversable
Haven't posted in a while.
Didn't think I would.
Blogging is overrated.
Steph is getting over some fears, but wallowing in others.
For the first time in my life, I told someone I liked them.
No, its not a big step, but for me it is.
Though I crashed and burned, and felt like an idiot, I did it.
I did it with a letter and a CD. Lame, I know.
In one of the nicest rejections I've ever encountered, he emailed me back.
In the email he explained his actions/reactions/behaviors, apologized for things he didn't need to apologize for, and told me that I needed to know that he recently entered a relationship.
Sweet, honest and to the point.
All things that I appreciated.
I was surprised to receive that, so much so that I emailed back without really thinking about what I was saying.
The email I responded with was full of self-loathing and apology, and poor attempts at humor.
So even though my friends would suggest against, I am going to re-respond, if that is even possible.
This time I will say what I meant to say the first time.
It is probably unnecessary, but I didn't want to leave this person with my shitty response.
I know I should just leave this situation behind, but this will be the last of my communication with this person, after this "better" response, I will be leaving this situation behind me.
Or thats what I hope.
Though thats not necessarily what will happen, I have the tendency to think way too much.
We'll see.
So, TTFN, everyone.
Live long & prosper.
-Stephani
Didn't think I would.
Blogging is overrated.
Steph is getting over some fears, but wallowing in others.
For the first time in my life, I told someone I liked them.
No, its not a big step, but for me it is.
Though I crashed and burned, and felt like an idiot, I did it.
I did it with a letter and a CD. Lame, I know.
In one of the nicest rejections I've ever encountered, he emailed me back.
In the email he explained his actions/reactions/behaviors, apologized for things he didn't need to apologize for, and told me that I needed to know that he recently entered a relationship.
Sweet, honest and to the point.
All things that I appreciated.
I was surprised to receive that, so much so that I emailed back without really thinking about what I was saying.
The email I responded with was full of self-loathing and apology, and poor attempts at humor.
So even though my friends would suggest against, I am going to re-respond, if that is even possible.
This time I will say what I meant to say the first time.
It is probably unnecessary, but I didn't want to leave this person with my shitty response.
I know I should just leave this situation behind, but this will be the last of my communication with this person, after this "better" response, I will be leaving this situation behind me.
Or thats what I hope.
Though thats not necessarily what will happen, I have the tendency to think way too much.
We'll see.
So, TTFN, everyone.
Live long & prosper.
-Stephani