Ok Fam read this...
Alright guys I really don't know whats going on with the bullshit...but let's bury the hatchet (hehe get it?)..This is how the Fam is looking..remember guys we are a fucking special group of people and we have a family that we ain't gonna let shit break...sure we will have our arguments and what not but we will get by it.. because remember guys in
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"but I don't think you guys know what you are in store for when you are around all of us..."
You have to remember as I told you before, I've known half of the Fam members much longer than you. These are my friends, the people I hang out with every day.
I was talking with Matt lastnight and today about why people have brought me into question, and a lot of it stems from me being best friends with Sarah. A lot of the problems that have been happening are I guess because of Sarah's and Corey's past relations. Supposedly many people made assumptions about me and said I totally aligned myself with Sarah. That couldn't be further from the truth. If you ask her, she'd admit that I talked with her a lot about how I thought it was wrong and got extremely upset with her towards the end. I won't get into details. I guess because I didn't voice how I was feeling to many other people that it was assumed that I was taking her side. Matt said that a display pleases the masses, but I don't think I should have to go out of my way to tell people what side I'm on. I made my own decisions for my own reasons. This also happened with the whole Matt missing ninja day because of my summer home thing and things were floating around about me changing Matt and sneaking away with hiom and complaning if I had faygo poured on me. I'm just asking that for those of you who have done it in the past, please don't make judgements or assumptions about me. I get it all the time, and it really hurts to know people would rather believe second-hand information and rumors than actually coming me to get the story straight.
I think this also had to do with the fact that I'm not considered a ninja. I know I've heard from many people that it is the music that brings all of you together, it's a common bond. But certain people feel that the Fam has become to focused on the music and less focused on being a family of friends. I'd be the first to admit that I haven't been listening to this music as long as you guys have, and I think that's obvious, but should be the determining factor. Isn't the meaning behind the music talking about a group of people who aren't accepted by society but they don't care because they're a family and they'll always have each other's backs? This is what I thought the Fam was about too. If anyone really knows me (or decides to get to know me) that I'd drop anything in a second for my friends. I have in the past, and I always will. I value others pver myself, and sometimes it has gotten me worn out but it's worth it to me. I know some people don't think I belong there, but I know that there are those who know and trust me and consider me to be a valuable friend. I'm just asking for a chance to be a friend to the people who don't know me that well. I've been stereotyped a lot by the way I look or the way I dress or act, but there is so much that is deeper inside. I know this is getting a tad emotional/crappy but I just wanted to get it out.
I've been trying to decide what I should do. I've heard that I'm invited and welcome, but I'm getting mixed stories. I want to go because it's a huge group of my friends and I'd love to just let loose and hang out. Then again, I said I didn't want to start any drama and it seems I've totally fucked that up so I was thinking of not going because I'd rather have everyone be happy rather than me going and having all these ill feelings floating around. I'm really sorry this took so long but this is everything that has been on my mind It's not up to me whether I become part of the Fam or not. If/when you decide, I just want you to know I'll still be there as a friend. Thanks for letting me get it all off of my chest. Hope I didn't offend anyone or hit any wrong nerves.
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wow.... de-ja-vu all over again.... lol
But yah rochelle, I see where you're coming from and I'm glad you spoke what you thought. Some of us, don't understand what is going on except for 2nd hand information. Personally, I try (but may not always) to get information from both sides. I repeat... TRY. lol. Sometimes I can be stubborn and not listen to people. Yes... it's happened in the past.
Crap I'm going off topic. lol.
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