2 YEARS LATER
Today or more like yesterday March 27th 2008 makes me and jose's Two Year anniversary. Who remembered and brought it up 1st ...... me and what did we do ......NOTHING
That single statement PERFECT Immortalizes our "relationship"
I'll back rack since it's been almost 2 years since i last posted
Me and jose moved 2 Orlando last august since then with BOTH of us having 2 jobs plus skool our lives are soo separate , i c him maybe like hrs a day ,I'm used to it but idk it's come to a point............
IS HE MY BOYFRIEND OR ROOMMATE
the sex ....... burnout , i expected that , but it's not bout fucking, it REALLY isn't , yes i do feel that it is important. I've try experimenting with positions and such but he just doesn't seem the enjoy it for him it's just about getting off he doesn't see the fun in JUST ABOUT ANYTHING
when we r together , we really don't do anything. all he wants to do is watch tv, yes tv is ok but he'll just ignore me and put all of his attention on to the computer or the tv. which is fine sometimes but OMG all he watches is fucking Disney and nick and all that garbage i don't fucking get it it's like he's 5 and he seriously gets into it, i thought it was cute as 1st but now idk i think it's some kind of psychological thing. which i can't help but get to me. Is he going to live his life in the state of mind of a 7 year old , or worse by the time he's 50 he'll live his life in the state of mind of a 16 year old by then..........? i just can't stop help but question it.
i know i'm not the sanest's person , i mean come 'on
this whole aspect is probably be the things that ends it. I don't wanna break up with him , i still love him , but I've grown sooo very numb to life. Bottom line i'm unhappy and stuck in the limbo of what i should do. shit ... now it's come to the point that i have to get mad in order to get sometype of attention from him. And he's the only person i want , i don't have any kind of feelings for anything. I've already flirted with other guy to get his attention. and it also frustrates me he just doesn't care. DO I HAVE TO FUCK SOMEONE TO WAKE HIM UP FROM w/e LA LA land the boy is in?!?!?!?!!!!????!!!
i'm even flirting with guys online HOPING (HOPING) he looks at the history and has some kind of reaction , fuck anything will be progress
i just don't know what to do anymore , i talk to him and then for like an hour i get some attention but then the next day it's like i've never said anything.
I'm 2 tired 2 try anymore
boil it all down Every day i CLEAN after HIM , Cook 4 him along with 2 Christmases where i get him something , what he get me .....NOTHING both bdays ......SAME. He never takes me out ...... when ever i convince him to go and do something i have to pay for it ...... every time we do out to dinner i have PAID 4 EVERY SINGLE time. i mean money isn't everything , i am kinda selfish but REALLY u think of two years me can just take me out 1 night , dinner and movie ad it doesn't have to be super expensive either just not fast food but just something to show he cares............. something
That single statement PERFECT Immortalizes our "relationship"
I'll back rack since it's been almost 2 years since i last posted
Me and jose moved 2 Orlando last august since then with BOTH of us having 2 jobs plus skool our lives are soo separate , i c him maybe like hrs a day ,I'm used to it but idk it's come to a point............
IS HE MY BOYFRIEND OR ROOMMATE
the sex ....... burnout , i expected that , but it's not bout fucking, it REALLY isn't , yes i do feel that it is important. I've try experimenting with positions and such but he just doesn't seem the enjoy it for him it's just about getting off he doesn't see the fun in JUST ABOUT ANYTHING
when we r together , we really don't do anything. all he wants to do is watch tv, yes tv is ok but he'll just ignore me and put all of his attention on to the computer or the tv. which is fine sometimes but OMG all he watches is fucking Disney and nick and all that garbage i don't fucking get it it's like he's 5 and he seriously gets into it, i thought it was cute as 1st but now idk i think it's some kind of psychological thing. which i can't help but get to me. Is he going to live his life in the state of mind of a 7 year old , or worse by the time he's 50 he'll live his life in the state of mind of a 16 year old by then..........? i just can't stop help but question it.
i know i'm not the sanest's person , i mean come 'on
this whole aspect is probably be the things that ends it. I don't wanna break up with him , i still love him , but I've grown sooo very numb to life. Bottom line i'm unhappy and stuck in the limbo of what i should do. shit ... now it's come to the point that i have to get mad in order to get sometype of attention from him. And he's the only person i want , i don't have any kind of feelings for anything. I've already flirted with other guy to get his attention. and it also frustrates me he just doesn't care. DO I HAVE TO FUCK SOMEONE TO WAKE HIM UP FROM w/e LA LA land the boy is in?!?!?!?!!!!????!!!
i'm even flirting with guys online HOPING (HOPING) he looks at the history and has some kind of reaction , fuck anything will be progress
i just don't know what to do anymore , i talk to him and then for like an hour i get some attention but then the next day it's like i've never said anything.
I'm 2 tired 2 try anymore
boil it all down Every day i CLEAN after HIM , Cook 4 him along with 2 Christmases where i get him something , what he get me .....NOTHING both bdays ......SAME. He never takes me out ...... when ever i convince him to go and do something i have to pay for it ...... every time we do out to dinner i have PAID 4 EVERY SINGLE time. i mean money isn't everything , i am kinda selfish but REALLY u think of two years me can just take me out 1 night , dinner and movie ad it doesn't have to be super expensive either just not fast food but just something to show he cares............. something