*sigh*
everything seems to be upsidedown
me and fredy got into a fight , i'm pissed off at jose, everyone seems to be in love with justin and at this point i would wish to take back the last 2 months if i wasn't so much in love with jose.
fredy has been getting all upset that i havn't been around to talk to him , and with all the drama and bullshit i don't really talk to anyone much these days. plus i'm just about working 12 hr shifts everyday at the movie theater now with jose like EVERYDAY so i'm always more tired then shit plus STILL SICK
he wanted to make a big deal out it , pissing me off , he thinks i'm avoiding him or somthing , if i was i wouldn't b talk to him at all. Also he is my best friend he knows how much i love him and will ALWAYS will. i'm just going though a HUGH rough patch right now with money being the main concern and all this bullshit of dealing with my roomies.
yesterday i just talk to justin finally just a random quick conversation and he tells " how he alwasy attracts gay guys up that ass ......... that even my BoyFriend thinks he's hot " i try to deny it
then the bomb hits justin tells me that jose has tried kissing him a couple of times. i of course thought he was lieing till i confronted jose about. I was SOOOO FUCKING PISSED i still am I MEAN WTF. this is JUSTIN we r talking bout
jose's lame ass excuse "thats he's just tryin to freak justin out and turn him gay" kinda makes sence but not really i kinda blew it off and forgave him . Since he said he wouldn't do it anymore and since the fact that he DIDn't ACTUALLY get to kiss him. of course i'm not going to forget about all that though
then today i go to the pool and i've been wanted to go sooo FUCKING bad for the past week or , i finally say FUCK it and go , jose is just playing his lil computer game. I stayed at the pool and though about eveything "SCHOOL" "DRAMA" "HOME" "MONEY" "FREDY" and then i get this really bad feeling so i got back to the apartment and then it is jose and justin just chatting but just has his hed in jose's lap..................
i know they weren't doing anything , plus justin IS str8 but the fact that NOW i have to worry about my bf and the fact that i can no longer trust him kills me
i thought he was better then that..............................
after EVERYTHING i've done for him ..... wtf am i surrpose to do ?.......
why?
me and fredy got into a fight , i'm pissed off at jose, everyone seems to be in love with justin and at this point i would wish to take back the last 2 months if i wasn't so much in love with jose.
fredy has been getting all upset that i havn't been around to talk to him , and with all the drama and bullshit i don't really talk to anyone much these days. plus i'm just about working 12 hr shifts everyday at the movie theater now with jose like EVERYDAY so i'm always more tired then shit plus STILL SICK
he wanted to make a big deal out it , pissing me off , he thinks i'm avoiding him or somthing , if i was i wouldn't b talk to him at all. Also he is my best friend he knows how much i love him and will ALWAYS will. i'm just going though a HUGH rough patch right now with money being the main concern and all this bullshit of dealing with my roomies.
yesterday i just talk to justin finally just a random quick conversation and he tells " how he alwasy attracts gay guys up that ass ......... that even my BoyFriend thinks he's hot " i try to deny it
then the bomb hits justin tells me that jose has tried kissing him a couple of times. i of course thought he was lieing till i confronted jose about. I was SOOOO FUCKING PISSED i still am I MEAN WTF. this is JUSTIN we r talking bout
jose's lame ass excuse "thats he's just tryin to freak justin out and turn him gay" kinda makes sence but not really i kinda blew it off and forgave him . Since he said he wouldn't do it anymore and since the fact that he DIDn't ACTUALLY get to kiss him. of course i'm not going to forget about all that though
then today i go to the pool and i've been wanted to go sooo FUCKING bad for the past week or , i finally say FUCK it and go , jose is just playing his lil computer game. I stayed at the pool and though about eveything "SCHOOL" "DRAMA" "HOME" "MONEY" "FREDY" and then i get this really bad feeling so i got back to the apartment and then it is jose and justin just chatting but just has his hed in jose's lap..................
i know they weren't doing anything , plus justin IS str8 but the fact that NOW i have to worry about my bf and the fact that i can no longer trust him kills me
i thought he was better then that..............................
after EVERYTHING i've done for him ..... wtf am i surrpose to do ?.......
why?