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i'm lost in a dilemma right now. and it would probably be suicide to talk about it on a live journal so i guess i wont, but its got me just wondering about things and how i have to do something about it, i cant leave it hanging out. so i will, and there that is. i saw garden state for the second time today and for the second time its been really good, its reached my top few movies , its really good. so yeah, my chrismas was ok, i got plenty of things i wanted which was a big surprise bcuz it never happens to me , well not all at once, and i didnt ask for anything this year, so i guess it worked out. new years is in two days and i'm excited. apparently its not decided after all about new york bcuz the flights started looking really bad, we might go, but it all depends on what it looks like, chances dont look good but it doesnt bother me to much, i was looking forward to it, but what can ya do, regaudless new years'll be a good time. hah, and i'm sitting here just wondering about everyone else, and how its been so far. which is horrible bcuz i should be out doing more, so i think from now , i'll try not to waste anymore of this break, i shouldnt be wasting it, we only get one of these every year,but anyways, it would be good for me, i need to get away from this weird stress i put over myself through the break, even though it hasnt been to much that i've done, thats something i hardly understand. this is unnecesarry stress here, but i guess thats what happens when u've got to much times on your hands, u just start recaping on eveything ,good and bad,and i have a horrible habit of getting caught on the bad for no a apparent reason, so i got take a break from my break and find something to do. its not really that i have nothing to do, its just i need to go somewhere and just not do this, and that probably made no sense, so now i'm confusing myself. which probably means i'm alittle tired and i need to get some rest . so till next time oh and my brother says hi, so next time.