Rainy Day
Rainy day is not actually the subject of this entry, but it is raining outside (which i can hear quite clearly because chris always has his window open) Anyhoo, since it seems like everyone's at the doctor right now, I guess I could take a butcher knife and rip my guts open onto this webpage. You never know, it might actually be fun. Unfortunately, I don't seem to be in the right mood to write about what i wanted to yesterday. That sucks. I actually do really wanna talk about it. There's a lot of stuff I wanna talk about,. but probably never will cuz i'm a yella-bellied fish-poop. shit, i think dad's home. I hope he doesn't bother me. He was supposed to be the one taking Amanda to the doctor, but he didn't want to cuz i think other people make him really nervous. wow, i typed all that crap like really fast. not that you can tell but i did. this is fun. i like typing fast. shit, chris is the one that's home and now he's getting ready to cuss me out. TTFN. wait. maybe i'll stay. he said he just wanted to take a nap. he can sleep on the couch, i'm getting in the mood (to talk. haha)Hmm... I guess for now I'll just start with cutting the underside of my arm with a safety pin yesterday. I'm not EXACTLY sure why I did it, but it did indeed make me feel better. Like I told Clacey, it's the physical pain that actually makes me STOP crying. Fun shit, I know. After I went home yesterday, I turned on IMF(International Music Feed) Then after a bit, I went into my room to work on that movie crap stuff for english, but i didn't end up getting anything done. I just layed down on my bed and listened to music while squeezing my smoosh pillow for about half an hour (in no way was that supposed to insinuate something dirty, and no, i'm not being sarcastic) So anyway, I went back out into the living room. Ate some cake and knock-off Cheetos for dinner, it was swell. then i just sat about 2 feet away from the tv and watch/listened to music. When I went back into my room to try to make a little more progress on my school-work, I once again ended up not doing anything. Instead, I put in my Pink CD and listened to Family Portrait, Dear Diary, Lonely Girl, and Numb twice in a row. I'm not sure when I got the paper clip, i think it was after the first round of Family Portrait. Anyhoot, I just opened it up and started scratching my arm. they're really just a bunch of little shallow scratches, no big deal. and that's about it. It was fun. Ah, I feel a little bit better now. Maybe I'll talk about more important things later. Y'all come back now, y'hear?
~2005 Winner os the Dumbass of the Year Award
(my parents are sooo proud)
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~2005 Winner os the Dumbass of the Year Award
(my parents are sooo proud)
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