the ramblings of my brain

[thecheshirecat]

i find myself extremely bothered and upset by the events that occurd tonight... hte safe line in which people will put themselves to avoid a situation that only becomes worse the longer you avoid... there is a level and responsibility of protection you are honor bound to in the line of work.. if you cannot uphold that then get the fuck out... and while i do what i can my power is not what i would like... at times anyways... my power is not what it was... my options limitless now limited and confined by rules and authority.... perhaps it best this way... when i had no barriers i damaged myself far more then the healing i tried to do.... you cannot heal what doesn't wat to be touched... you cannot protect what isn't your's to protect... what is out of your barriers... be careful what you joke about... ayeah but no i am rambling... work put me through a test and while for those i must oversee i stand well... but by myself i don't... sometimes a guardian to help you through those last steps are necessary... the weak do not last... the cowards will fall... the truth uncovered... pusnishment unavoidable... karma returns fulls strength... you only get back what you give... if you give cowardness and hide behind the safety line then you will be shamed... stand up fear or not and be rewarded .... the reward not always clear... be better for what little of human kind its worth... the rambling thoughts make my head spin... emotions circling.... words fail me... can i really let go enough when the time comes???

if i could face him one more time... i would ask him why... why did he do what he did... and when he tried to repeat history why knowing full well i would stop him no matter the damage to myself...

perhaps if i find my room again i can find the deep calm that lead me through my hallways... the safety in my head where no tainted thought could pass...

the world is no longer as safe as what was taught to us as children... you cannot just walk down the block... you cannot trust everyone... hell some people are not even safe in their own house... guardians... warriors... healers... whether you are one of those or all three... stand strong... its a lonely road at times... the benefits not so grand...

to many what ifs fall on the table... to many what ifs float in the breeze... to many what ifs exist in the world...

the calm... the peace... the quiet...
all is quiet at the battle front...
the wounded have been attened to...
the healers have healed and blessed...
the guards stand watch...
the weak sleep...
the strong wander...

who knows where the road goes...
who knows where it will end...

home is where the heart is...
to maintain humanity one must claim home...
to destroy one self is to deny home...

find your power....
master it...
use it to help others...

anger can fuel a fire...
it can also destroy ...
understanding is the key...
findings ways to live with it is the treasure ox the key goes into...

rain will cleanse the soul and the earth...
embrace it and mother earth embraces us...
be cleansed...
be reborn....