What am I doing here?
So yeah, I know I haven't updated in a while but I've been really quite busy. Kinda.
Well, I'm on res now. I'm out on my own. I've left the next. Big woah.
The thing is....I'm not having the great blast I thought I would be having. I *think* it might be my floor and how unwelcomed I feel. How different and left out I feel because they're into weed and drinking and basically everything I'm not. ARG.
One of my faith barriers this year is to share the gospel with my floor members but I have so much doubt. I feel intimdated, outcasted, disinterested...and just overall fearful (I think). I've never had trouble being friendly and making new friends, I've never really been that "other", and it really really sucks. Looking back, I've always found my own group pretty early.
I'm also not that happy with my roommate. Sarah IS nice but we just don't mesh very well. Maybe it's because we haven't really had a heart to heart talk, I don't know. I just know that I'm not as happy as I wish I was.
And that's the plain and honest truth.
I AM happy though with my involvement and experiences with C4C. Loving that. I know I should just give everything up to God and I AM going to do just that. I trust Him with my happiness, I am here for a reason and he will provide.
I pray for strength and hope.
Well, I'm on res now. I'm out on my own. I've left the next. Big woah.
The thing is....I'm not having the great blast I thought I would be having. I *think* it might be my floor and how unwelcomed I feel. How different and left out I feel because they're into weed and drinking and basically everything I'm not. ARG.
One of my faith barriers this year is to share the gospel with my floor members but I have so much doubt. I feel intimdated, outcasted, disinterested...and just overall fearful (I think). I've never had trouble being friendly and making new friends, I've never really been that "other", and it really really sucks. Looking back, I've always found my own group pretty early.
I'm also not that happy with my roommate. Sarah IS nice but we just don't mesh very well. Maybe it's because we haven't really had a heart to heart talk, I don't know. I just know that I'm not as happy as I wish I was.
And that's the plain and honest truth.
I AM happy though with my involvement and experiences with C4C. Loving that. I know I should just give everything up to God and I AM going to do just that. I trust Him with my happiness, I am here for a reason and he will provide.
I pray for strength and hope.