time and life and change and tears and joy and ecstasy and tears and anger and confusion and heartache and mindache and headache and oneness and excitement and hope and jealousy and insecurity and clean slates and driving and money and lack of money and mother and father and futures and development and change and books and pillows and my own bed and his arms and my neck and long curly hair and appreciation and here and now and no regrets and inspiration and reasons to live and vibrancy and beauty and compassion and patience and tolerance and responsibilities and bills and adult things and despair and feeling heavy and breaking free and finding light and carrying light and projecting light and beginnings and change and life and time