Oh, the things I have Learned
I have learned so much about myself this year. The funny thing is that I don’t even know what I have learned is accurate. Probably one of the most influential people who tell me things I had never really thought about my self is my girlfriend Lindsay Jost (10 months). She has said that she has things figured out in everything but relationships. Love is one of the most strived after emotion of life. But do we really know what it is? To me it is what it is. It is an emotion that can only be felt not defined. Webster defines it as a strong attraction or liking a passionate feeling. I don’t think I can define it nor do I want to. I want to feel it and I think I have, but what do I know I’m only 16. I don’t think that anyone can be shown what the perfect relationship is. I think that girls believe love to be the end all be all fantastic thing that they see the relationships on TV and movies portray. I have no ideas on what guys think love is, and I am a guy. This might spring from the fact that high school guys for the majority are not concerned with love at all, whereas a girl is consumed with it from the moment she receives her first dress-up wedding dress. Guys don’t get tuxedos to dress up in and ponder what their married life will be like. I have no answers to the problem I see in society referring to the gender roles of the male and female but I see a problem. Or is it a problem? I think that that decision rests in the mind of the individual pondering the thought. Wow, I got off track. Oh well anyway Lindsay told me on more than one occasion in the nicest way possible that I was selfish. I never saw this, I never thought of myself as being selfish, but I saw through my actions that I was selfish. Again self-reflection is amazing. I worry about myself more than everyone else. I want to change. I don’t think that any humans consider themselves to be selfish, but inherently in their own minds they can do no wrong. A critical analysis on oneself if done without others help or with someone’s statement is amazing I highly encourages it. Slow down and look at your self, your friends, where you have been, and where you are going. I don’t do it enough. And I love the results every time.