When did this become work? ....Is love always suppose to be a 'job'?
You know that moment in time when everything just 'clicks' and you dont know it at the time but you will sell your soul to have that one moment back when it comes to your first big fight? Yeah well, I wish it was really that simple and laid-out. We had one of our big fights last night and the wors epart is admitting to myself that alot of the points he made were valid. Against me.
How come when things are going great, we have to sabotage it and start a fight? Do we do it to fit into the 'norm' or do we do it because, inwardly, we feel we dont really deserve to have everything going smoothly? Oh im not saying he was flawless, PLEASE! But what drives me crazy is that he basivally pointed out how I make him feel (like shit) and that he is 'so used to me being angry with him that it doesnt even faze him anymore (GASP)but what hurt was that he said I 'never trusted or believed in him' when we both knew that was a lie!!
I knew then that we were saying things, at that point, just to hurt each other and I left the room. Yeah I know, real friggin mature right? Anyway I just sat here wondering, when did love go from holding hands and loving the smile you each had just for the other to snarling, back-biting words hurled to hurt and not help? When did this become work? As always you dont have to post a comment or reply but when did love change for you? When did you realize that your heart was in a 24/7 job that suddenly lost its benefits?
How come when things are going great, we have to sabotage it and start a fight? Do we do it to fit into the 'norm' or do we do it because, inwardly, we feel we dont really deserve to have everything going smoothly? Oh im not saying he was flawless, PLEASE! But what drives me crazy is that he basivally pointed out how I make him feel (like shit) and that he is 'so used to me being angry with him that it doesnt even faze him anymore (GASP)but what hurt was that he said I 'never trusted or believed in him' when we both knew that was a lie!!
I knew then that we were saying things, at that point, just to hurt each other and I left the room. Yeah I know, real friggin mature right? Anyway I just sat here wondering, when did love go from holding hands and loving the smile you each had just for the other to snarling, back-biting words hurled to hurt and not help? When did this become work? As always you dont have to post a comment or reply but when did love change for you? When did you realize that your heart was in a 24/7 job that suddenly lost its benefits?