Pots and Pans
I had a really good day today.
Yesterday we worked on the water complex liner, it was a lighter day and that was nice. We had the guys come, drop off the liner and pull it in, and we layed down the fabric on top and started cementing the fabrics/liners in place. Rock comes on Saturday. It's amazing how much work goes into something like this, but it'll be amazing to have it up and going after this weekend. No matter how you cut it, yesterday was huge.
And today, today just rocked. I got paid, and that was very nice, seeing as June's paycheck had to cover May, June, and July, so I've been a little out of money. But I got paid, so I visited Tiffany on her last day (my awesome bank manager, she's moving to the Beaverton branch) and I gave her a copy of Jillyn's CD. We talked some too, and that was good. It's one of my favorite things about Newberg, that you can go to your bank, and they all know you, and you know them, and you can hang out and laugh and have some good conversation with the manager in the lunch room because they're your friend too. I've always liked small towns. I also went grocery shopping, which felt so good after eating pasta for dinner every night for the last few weeks. I've got salad now, and bagels, and lunch meat, and cheese, and all sorts of good things. I also bought a cheese slicer, and the best part of today:
I bought a set of pots and pans!
My very own. I'm so thrilled, it's awesome. They're pretty cool, it's one of the big pots, a medium and a small and two skillets. After living on one pot and one skillet for awhile, this is a considerable upgrade. These are also finer quality, they're my style, they're slick and nifty, and they're mine! I also just got a lot done, which felt really good. We all have little errands we need to take care of, things we gotta do, well I basically took care of everything today, so I can breath easily again. I also met with Hansen, (my boss) and scoped out the next section of the project. It'll be much more fun than the swing stuff, because I get to play with Genuts and do some sprite action. I can't wait for the actual AI class in the spring when we get to use this stuff.
And Zach and Jen got married! Their wedding was really neat. I had Ben over for dinner tonight, I haven't seen him or talked to him in months, I was hoping Zach and Jen could come too, but they're still on their honeymoon. I wish Shanna could come too, but she's in Cali. I do miss those crazy lab friends, as much as I try not to spend all my time there, I do enjoy it. I get to call Amanda tomorrow too, and she's always a blessing to my soul, and I hang out with Jillyn on Friday, and she'll give me a haircut which is much needed, so I don't know how things can get much better.
Really, I'm at a point of rebirth. The me that lived those first 18 or some odd years is dead, gone, something of the past. And the me I am now is not even really a newer better version of him, I'm really a new person altogether, above, beyond, and seperate from who I came from. It's like being born again, a new person, and learning and growing and discovering just like you're supposed to. These last few years have been hard, even these last few months, but oh I wouldn't trade it for the world. The path is hard, and sometimes I get discouraged, but it's nice, on those moments, to step back and take a look and really see where you're going, and where you've come from. Every day is new, it's so fresh in my life, I feel new, I feel replenished, better, restored, renewed, or even remade. It's in the little things, in watching Love Actually with Nicole, Amber, and Kiersten. It's in walking home, looking at the stars under the night air, able to dance in the intersection, because there's not a car in sight, only green lights all the way down. It's working at the farm, it's programming, it's writing. It's multicultural, it's living, breathing. There's life here, and in me, new life, new growth, new hope. It's not 'new' in the sense of replacing the void of what was missing, it's not fresh hope, it's new hope. It's something new, exciting, altogether different. I sit at the edge of discovering everything I am, of launching off, of doing everything I've ever wanted to. It's a quietness, a peace, and a subltle but powerful smile.
I think that's why the pots and pans are such a big thing. It's not about pots and pans, they're nice to cook in, but that's not what it's about. It's about me, it's about buying something that I like, something I want, It's about defining myself, taking hold of who I am and where I'm heading. It's about taking claim to who I'll be. It's about inventing myself, creating my style, and loving who I am. And it's really good. So was that spagetti I made tonight in them :)
Past a certain point, words fail, they trail off, they can't describe it. But my smile would, if you could see it. You'd see in my eyes, in my heart, in how I said hello, in how I hugged you and waved goodbye. You'd know. I'm a bad mask wearer anyway.
Take care friends, readers, and passerbys.
Yesterday we worked on the water complex liner, it was a lighter day and that was nice. We had the guys come, drop off the liner and pull it in, and we layed down the fabric on top and started cementing the fabrics/liners in place. Rock comes on Saturday. It's amazing how much work goes into something like this, but it'll be amazing to have it up and going after this weekend. No matter how you cut it, yesterday was huge.
And today, today just rocked. I got paid, and that was very nice, seeing as June's paycheck had to cover May, June, and July, so I've been a little out of money. But I got paid, so I visited Tiffany on her last day (my awesome bank manager, she's moving to the Beaverton branch) and I gave her a copy of Jillyn's CD. We talked some too, and that was good. It's one of my favorite things about Newberg, that you can go to your bank, and they all know you, and you know them, and you can hang out and laugh and have some good conversation with the manager in the lunch room because they're your friend too. I've always liked small towns. I also went grocery shopping, which felt so good after eating pasta for dinner every night for the last few weeks. I've got salad now, and bagels, and lunch meat, and cheese, and all sorts of good things. I also bought a cheese slicer, and the best part of today:
I bought a set of pots and pans!
My very own. I'm so thrilled, it's awesome. They're pretty cool, it's one of the big pots, a medium and a small and two skillets. After living on one pot and one skillet for awhile, this is a considerable upgrade. These are also finer quality, they're my style, they're slick and nifty, and they're mine! I also just got a lot done, which felt really good. We all have little errands we need to take care of, things we gotta do, well I basically took care of everything today, so I can breath easily again. I also met with Hansen, (my boss) and scoped out the next section of the project. It'll be much more fun than the swing stuff, because I get to play with Genuts and do some sprite action. I can't wait for the actual AI class in the spring when we get to use this stuff.
And Zach and Jen got married! Their wedding was really neat. I had Ben over for dinner tonight, I haven't seen him or talked to him in months, I was hoping Zach and Jen could come too, but they're still on their honeymoon. I wish Shanna could come too, but she's in Cali. I do miss those crazy lab friends, as much as I try not to spend all my time there, I do enjoy it. I get to call Amanda tomorrow too, and she's always a blessing to my soul, and I hang out with Jillyn on Friday, and she'll give me a haircut which is much needed, so I don't know how things can get much better.
Really, I'm at a point of rebirth. The me that lived those first 18 or some odd years is dead, gone, something of the past. And the me I am now is not even really a newer better version of him, I'm really a new person altogether, above, beyond, and seperate from who I came from. It's like being born again, a new person, and learning and growing and discovering just like you're supposed to. These last few years have been hard, even these last few months, but oh I wouldn't trade it for the world. The path is hard, and sometimes I get discouraged, but it's nice, on those moments, to step back and take a look and really see where you're going, and where you've come from. Every day is new, it's so fresh in my life, I feel new, I feel replenished, better, restored, renewed, or even remade. It's in the little things, in watching Love Actually with Nicole, Amber, and Kiersten. It's in walking home, looking at the stars under the night air, able to dance in the intersection, because there's not a car in sight, only green lights all the way down. It's working at the farm, it's programming, it's writing. It's multicultural, it's living, breathing. There's life here, and in me, new life, new growth, new hope. It's not 'new' in the sense of replacing the void of what was missing, it's not fresh hope, it's new hope. It's something new, exciting, altogether different. I sit at the edge of discovering everything I am, of launching off, of doing everything I've ever wanted to. It's a quietness, a peace, and a subltle but powerful smile.
I think that's why the pots and pans are such a big thing. It's not about pots and pans, they're nice to cook in, but that's not what it's about. It's about me, it's about buying something that I like, something I want, It's about defining myself, taking hold of who I am and where I'm heading. It's about taking claim to who I'll be. It's about inventing myself, creating my style, and loving who I am. And it's really good. So was that spagetti I made tonight in them :)
Past a certain point, words fail, they trail off, they can't describe it. But my smile would, if you could see it. You'd see in my eyes, in my heart, in how I said hello, in how I hugged you and waved goodbye. You'd know. I'm a bad mask wearer anyway.
Take care friends, readers, and passerbys.