Aug 29, 2005 23:59
Have you ever had one of those moments where all of the sudden, like there was literally a light-bulb turning on, a notch clicking into place, your breath catches and you finally understand?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you shiver so hard that you jaw hurts from chattering, your muscles are so tight you can't move, you can't think of anything except wanting to stop your teeth from clicking together, yet you're having so much fun, you don't want to go inside?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you wake up in the morning and tell yourself that you're jazzed, rested, and ready to face the world, whatever could happen?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you sneeze so hard that your throat stings, you eyes water, and your nose tingles?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you cry so hard that your diaphram starts to spasm and all you get are chokes, where your body is wracked with the feeling of true sobs, where your eyes are almost swollen shut, where you can't be moved, where your nose is running more than your eyes?
Have you ever had one of those moments when you are so angry that every emotion is racing through you at the speed of light, first hatred, then jealousy, then hopelessness, then pain, then regret, and then you realize that there's nowhere to go, so you come forgiveness?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you say something so funny that everyone around you laughs with genuine pleasure and you puff up in pride, feeling as if things could never get better, egging you on?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you say or do something that you can't believe you just did and you sit and examine yourself in utter awe wondering where your newfound talent could possibly have come from and why it was only showing up right then?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you look at someone or something and your breath catches in your throat, your eyes widen in awe, and your heart beats just a little faster as you see firsthand just exactly what true beauty is?
Have you ever had one of those moments when you've felt such sadness or loss of hope that even deep down you feel things might never, ever be the way they were, never carefree or completely honest, always a facade hiding the turmoil that's bound to come about?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you feel such frustration that your hands shake, your voice doesn't work, your mind can't form the words you need to express yourself, and all you want to do is lash out?
Have you ever had one of those moments where unspoken words and thoughts swarm through your brain as if a windstorm stole through an open window to knock down every carefully pinned notice that you had tacked to the side of your mind, ordered and kept safe, and all you want to do is write or talk or yell or scream to get it out, but you don't have paper, no one is with you, or you're sitting to quietly to make a scene?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you feel completely and utter alone, lost in a sea of faces, emotions, and drama, yet when you open your eyes, you realize that the fight you are fighting is not a simple one, but complex, and you are not alone, but stand together with many, many others?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you laugh so hard tears are running down your face, your cheeks hurt, you sides are giving you some of the worst pain you've ever felt, you're begging yourself to stop, yet all you can do is keep laughing?
Build upon them.