Summer is almost over :(
I guess I'm technically considered a Junior now. An Upperclassmen. I...We have so much in front of us: APs, Colleges, Prom, Careers. It seems less than a few weeks that I was entering high school. Before we all know it, we will be Seniors, on top the school. My dream would be to dance in front of everything. Volleyball is something I enjoy greatly, but Dance is my passion. I have loved to dance since I was six. SIX. Now I'm SIXteen and I feel I still have a lot of room for improvement. I want to be the best that I can be. I have so many goals for myself. So many things I need to perfect. People tell me to be so many things: Cambrey relax more, Cam calm down, Cambrey you can't be perfect, Cambrey don't yell, Cambrey don't cry, Cambrey your too self absorbed. Don't be so controlling. Don't be so picky. I wish people could except me for the way that I am. I mean sure I have room to improve, but so does everyone else. I don't talk behind peoples back as much as other people. I try not to judge. I don't choose sides. I try to stay out of fights as much as possible. I try to keep my opinions to myself. I've learned to be these things from past experiences and I feel I'm still not good enough. I've learned not to care what other people think, but I feel like I'm being pulled from my back in each direction telling me what is right or wrong. Then people wonder why I'm so stressed.
I wish I could have a chance. Everyone one seems to have a "best friend" someone they can trust that won't tell any of their deepest thoughts. Someone to confide in, never get sick of their complaining, to have fun with, inside jokes with. And then all these girls complain about having a healthy relationship with a boy. And you know? That's great. I know everyone wants one of those. And I do have a healthy relationship and yes its great. But sometimes, one needs to think about what they always will have. A strong friendship with a best friend. Most relationships end badly (of course you grow from them and its great in between), but a true friend you will always have by your side.
I wish I could have a chance. Everyone one seems to have a "best friend" someone they can trust that won't tell any of their deepest thoughts. Someone to confide in, never get sick of their complaining, to have fun with, inside jokes with. And then all these girls complain about having a healthy relationship with a boy. And you know? That's great. I know everyone wants one of those. And I do have a healthy relationship and yes its great. But sometimes, one needs to think about what they always will have. A strong friendship with a best friend. Most relationships end badly (of course you grow from them and its great in between), but a true friend you will always have by your side.