what is regret?
"and you will never know how much you loved him, and you will never know how much it hurts, and you will never know how much it takes you to be with him, and you'll never know how much you mean to him, and you'll never know how much you'll love him but when you get to simply say those three special words to make him turn around, drop everything, throw his self unto you, refrain from twisting the knob open, from moving a step forward from leaving everything behind him; it only takes those words to change everything before it's too late. seconds will eat itself and when it does, he's not in front of you anymore and it will break you; it will destroy you. oh how much regret will you feel when you don't tell him that. but he'd leave, you'd say, and he did because you said that instead of the i love you that he's been trying to get out of your mouth. but you did say he'd leave, it showed on your face and you cried, and mumbled with a crack voice, "he'd leave" and he did. he fucking did."