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it's painful how easy you forget about me,
but it's alright this time; because i can say that i feel the same way time time around.
moving on and finding someone new is so refreshing. i forgot. grant was so long ago, it ended horrible, and i ended up right where i began when we broke up. with the same person from before. not this time. it's over i'm done. new feelings, new boy, thank god. good christmas present.
jeff died. mark's is like my family, and yes i know i wasn't close to him. but i can still be in pain because of it. everyone else has known him much longer and is much closer with him, and everyone in that shop means a lot to me, so that's enough just to know that during the biggest holiday of the year, so many people are upset. i'm not looking forward to the wake for the same reason i broke down at the last one i went too. flashbacks of ben. but i really want to be there for everyone, and i know that they'll notice and appriciate it. R.I.P. Jeff, you were a good man.
Merry Christmas everyone that celebrates it.
hope fully i snap out of this by my next entry.
but it's alright this time; because i can say that i feel the same way time time around.
moving on and finding someone new is so refreshing. i forgot. grant was so long ago, it ended horrible, and i ended up right where i began when we broke up. with the same person from before. not this time. it's over i'm done. new feelings, new boy, thank god. good christmas present.
jeff died. mark's is like my family, and yes i know i wasn't close to him. but i can still be in pain because of it. everyone else has known him much longer and is much closer with him, and everyone in that shop means a lot to me, so that's enough just to know that during the biggest holiday of the year, so many people are upset. i'm not looking forward to the wake for the same reason i broke down at the last one i went too. flashbacks of ben. but i really want to be there for everyone, and i know that they'll notice and appriciate it. R.I.P. Jeff, you were a good man.
Merry Christmas everyone that celebrates it.
hope fully i snap out of this by my next entry.