stuck in reverse..
i'm angry.
i'm angry because my parents arn't helping me apply to college and it's extremly overwhleming and ridiculous the amount of work i have to do to apply. i just want to feel like i'm going somewhere in life, but it's a lot for a 17 year old honestly.
i'm angry because my art teacher keeps putting off showing me how to set up my portfolio. the longer i wait, the less of a chance i have to get into purchase, if i don't get into purchase, i don't care what happens. It's not my fault i don't know how to take pictures of slides. It's not my fault that i want to do it as soon as possible. And it's not my fault that no one else in class cares about going to college and setting their portfolio up. She told me she would, but she didn't tell me that she would when it's too late.
i'm angry because math b is ridiculous. yes, i know i can stay after and get help so that i understand the concepts, that's not the point. why should i have to stay after and waste my time with something that isn't even a fucking requierment? because it looks good on transcripts? i don't give a fuck. if i did, i would have taken chem. instead of astronomy and forensics. i don't understand anything in class, and if i do any worse or fail anymore tests, i'm going to fail the class, and then schools arn't going to accept me.
i'm mad because i know that when you get closer to me, you run. i know that you have some sort of commitment issues. And i know that you don't want anything more to happen, but you like me alot? i don't get it. i'm sorry. i like you back, but you already knew that.
i'm mad because my math class is going to get in trouble for going to the commens when the sub didn't show up. i feel it was a responsable move on our part seen as how we were in an unsupervised room, and we found supervision because our irresponsable teacher didn't come to class. we're getting peanalized for it? kiss my fucking ass.
i'm mad because everything goes wrong at once, and i just can't be happy for more than three weeks, it's not allowed. WHY.
i'm mad because you put me in this possition. you're my friend, and now i'm stuck. do i tell? do i ignore? do i talk to you about it? or will that just piss you off, or scare you away. what will help you? because i don't know and you're an addict. this is heavy shit.
i'm mad at everyone and everything, and i feel like no one cares, know
i'm angry because my parents arn't helping me apply to college and it's extremly overwhleming and ridiculous the amount of work i have to do to apply. i just want to feel like i'm going somewhere in life, but it's a lot for a 17 year old honestly.
i'm angry because my art teacher keeps putting off showing me how to set up my portfolio. the longer i wait, the less of a chance i have to get into purchase, if i don't get into purchase, i don't care what happens. It's not my fault i don't know how to take pictures of slides. It's not my fault that i want to do it as soon as possible. And it's not my fault that no one else in class cares about going to college and setting their portfolio up. She told me she would, but she didn't tell me that she would when it's too late.
i'm angry because math b is ridiculous. yes, i know i can stay after and get help so that i understand the concepts, that's not the point. why should i have to stay after and waste my time with something that isn't even a fucking requierment? because it looks good on transcripts? i don't give a fuck. if i did, i would have taken chem. instead of astronomy and forensics. i don't understand anything in class, and if i do any worse or fail anymore tests, i'm going to fail the class, and then schools arn't going to accept me.
i'm mad because i know that when you get closer to me, you run. i know that you have some sort of commitment issues. And i know that you don't want anything more to happen, but you like me alot? i don't get it. i'm sorry. i like you back, but you already knew that.
i'm mad because my math class is going to get in trouble for going to the commens when the sub didn't show up. i feel it was a responsable move on our part seen as how we were in an unsupervised room, and we found supervision because our irresponsable teacher didn't come to class. we're getting peanalized for it? kiss my fucking ass.
i'm mad because everything goes wrong at once, and i just can't be happy for more than three weeks, it's not allowed. WHY.
i'm mad because you put me in this possition. you're my friend, and now i'm stuck. do i tell? do i ignore? do i talk to you about it? or will that just piss you off, or scare you away. what will help you? because i don't know and you're an addict. this is heavy shit.
i'm mad at everyone and everything, and i feel like no one cares, know